Getting ready to have dinner that my baby made....and I sit here thinking. I HATE this time of the visit..you know the night before. I drive myself crazy.. I recognized this today when I had to go in for a work meeting...so when asked...I picked up a day shift tomorrow so that I wasn't sitting around while he is driving back to NH.
It has been a great few days...I have been kinda moody...but his love has truly shined through and I see why it is we work so well together.
I will NOT allow myself to sit and cry the last night we are together. I have had bad chest pains tonight...(I have heart issues from years of anorexia...)...they passed as they always do...but my love has truly helped me....he just adores me...I dont want him to leave...I hate the rollercoaster...but I truly have to focus...accept the fact that I have my love.
We know that unless his house sells neither of us can get time off for the holidays...so we won't see each other till a couple of days after Christmas..
Just so many emotions. Thanks for "hearing me"...it's good to know someone out there "gets this."
It has been a great few days...I have been kinda moody...but his love has truly shined through and I see why it is we work so well together.
I will NOT allow myself to sit and cry the last night we are together. I have had bad chest pains tonight...(I have heart issues from years of anorexia...)...they passed as they always do...but my love has truly helped me....he just adores me...I dont want him to leave...I hate the rollercoaster...but I truly have to focus...accept the fact that I have my love.
We know that unless his house sells neither of us can get time off for the holidays...so we won't see each other till a couple of days after Christmas..
Just so many emotions. Thanks for "hearing me"...it's good to know someone out there "gets this."
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