So about 5 months I met this amazing man who almost instantly swept me off my feet! The only downfall was that he lived about 75 miles away from me but in a few weeks we both realized that what we were feeling towards one another was worth every mile! We began commuting back and forth, one weekend I travel to see him and the next weekend, he comes to see me. As time went on, he communicated to me all of his past disappointments in relationships; specifically his ex-wife. She apparently had some disturbing mental issues that ultimately gave him full-time custody of his two little children and gave her enough spare time to taunt him with threats of loosing him job. With that being said, I am also a single parent with 3 children: 16, 13 & 6. So as you can see we automatically began having some minor hurdles to climb over.
My major mistake that was completely intentional and honestly harmless, was one evening, I took my son driving with my LDBF in the car and we drove past my exbf apartment. I failed to tell my LDBF that he lived there and one day it just came out and he put two and two together and became furious with me. I felt horrible and still till this day he bring that up. He feels completely uncomfortable that I live so close to him and anything that he can not reach me he automatically thinks I am visiting him! Now due to his past experiences, he has some major fears that I am going to deceive him, lie to him, cheat on him almost every day. He questions anything that seems out of the ordinary to him. Now, I understand his past and his pain but to add a little more information to this story, he is in a law enforcement position where they are all trained to question everyones motive. But I honestly don't ever think about anyone else or have any desire to see anyone but him. It also doesn't help that I work for a utility company and I am constantly around men, he now fears that I am going to take advantage of my endless supply of men here and hook up with one of them but seriously WTH! I don't want to loose this man and our special connection because I know that he is worth everything, every tear fallen, pain felt in my heart, and frustration because our unconditional love outweighs these emotions.
Now when we are together, everything is magical! We hardly ever argue or fuss about anything. It is as though the world stands still for us and we are able to embrace each others love without any doubts. But lately the moment he questions my intentions I automatically become defensive and then my sarcasm kicks in and then he becomes rude and arrogant and then our argument turns into a yelling match. It is a vicious cycle that I want to end but I don't know how. He's already explained to me that it is very difficult for him to completely trust anyone and he has the mentality that he needs to be one step ahead of everyones thinking. He told me last night that he doesn't want to be caught off guard and does not want to be played for a fool! BUT I am not playing him or anyone! I don't have time for games and I am sincerely in love with this man, if I wasn't I would have left a long time ago!!
What are we to do? I even looked up our astrology signs yesterday (yes I am desperate) and it states that he is fire and I am water. Our signs the majority of time don't blend well but I believe anything is possible. I don't want this to come to an end!
HELP!! please
My major mistake that was completely intentional and honestly harmless, was one evening, I took my son driving with my LDBF in the car and we drove past my exbf apartment. I failed to tell my LDBF that he lived there and one day it just came out and he put two and two together and became furious with me. I felt horrible and still till this day he bring that up. He feels completely uncomfortable that I live so close to him and anything that he can not reach me he automatically thinks I am visiting him! Now due to his past experiences, he has some major fears that I am going to deceive him, lie to him, cheat on him almost every day. He questions anything that seems out of the ordinary to him. Now, I understand his past and his pain but to add a little more information to this story, he is in a law enforcement position where they are all trained to question everyones motive. But I honestly don't ever think about anyone else or have any desire to see anyone but him. It also doesn't help that I work for a utility company and I am constantly around men, he now fears that I am going to take advantage of my endless supply of men here and hook up with one of them but seriously WTH! I don't want to loose this man and our special connection because I know that he is worth everything, every tear fallen, pain felt in my heart, and frustration because our unconditional love outweighs these emotions.
Now when we are together, everything is magical! We hardly ever argue or fuss about anything. It is as though the world stands still for us and we are able to embrace each others love without any doubts. But lately the moment he questions my intentions I automatically become defensive and then my sarcasm kicks in and then he becomes rude and arrogant and then our argument turns into a yelling match. It is a vicious cycle that I want to end but I don't know how. He's already explained to me that it is very difficult for him to completely trust anyone and he has the mentality that he needs to be one step ahead of everyones thinking. He told me last night that he doesn't want to be caught off guard and does not want to be played for a fool! BUT I am not playing him or anyone! I don't have time for games and I am sincerely in love with this man, if I wasn't I would have left a long time ago!!
What are we to do? I even looked up our astrology signs yesterday (yes I am desperate) and it states that he is fire and I am water. Our signs the majority of time don't blend well but I believe anything is possible. I don't want this to come to an end!
HELP!! please
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