You have all probably noticed that I wasn't active much lately.
It was first a 'good' thing cause I spend a lot of time with my SO but yesterday it turned around. My absence in the next couple of days/weeks had a different reason...
My SO and I had a fight last night.
If I wasn't so angry I would've probably broken up.
He usually mutes his mic when we cam and someone calls him. Yesterday he did as well tellin me its his mum. I didnt worry and waited patiently. After 10 mins his mic turns on again and I hear him say things like "are you sure you're ok beautiful? if you feel bad just text me ok?" I heard that tone before as well as those words. No one on this planet would talk to their mom like that. I noticed something was wrong...
I started ignoring him and answered his question of what was wrong with a harsh "nothing" untill I exploded.
To make things short it ended up bein his ex-gf that he talked to yet he didnt call her on pupose beautiful. He said he was lookin at me but talkin to her and therefore got mixed up. Uhm... yea ??
I was shoutin and cryin so badly if he was serious or if its just supposed to be a joke.
I cant write everything in detail cause it'd be way too long.
Conclusion of it all is:
He got close with her yet doesnt love her.
He loves me and wants to be with me yet isnt sure about our future, cause lookin at it seriously the chance for us to meet is somewhere far down low (which is kinda true)
He doesnt wanna break up cause he truely loves me.
We didnt break up and kinda madeup.
Just a lil bit ago he said he was feelin bad cause of his mom and I said "And what did beautiful say?" bringin back last night and he completely blacked out, went offline and wouldnt talk to me. I bombed him with messages on Facebook untill he got on lol
We fought again.
He basically made it look like I was the evil one for bringin up that he called his ex beautiful and told me that its his mom >_>
I just didnt wanna fight anymore I was so sick of it so I just offered peace and he agreed sayin he will drop it cause he doesnt want us to hurt each other.
Gosh... Are all men like that?? :/
Sometimes its so difficult bein with him cause he becomes such a baby! Starts whinin about how I hurt him eventhough he did even worse damage to me
Yet again through such fights I kinda notice how much he loves me. I know this sounds like a contradiction but idk... I just know him and everything why not and why yes etc so it's easier for me to deal with it but yea...
My best friend said I am unhappy recently (mainly cause of Chris which last week was kinda true cause I didnt talk to him since he was home --> logical conclusion: I miss him/am unhappy)
My mum yet again said I dont seem sad at all
And an other friend told me to just chill right now before jumpin to wrong conclusions (like breakin up)
Right now it's alright, he's goin nuts on some maths stuff he has to do for college and Im tryin to make him twist his nipples so that he'd smile lol
Anyway I basically just wanted to leave a lil update on me and my SO and let you guys know that its not cause of you that Im no on much and that Im sorry, it's just a bunch of stuff goin on
Hope y'all are doin good yes?
It was first a 'good' thing cause I spend a lot of time with my SO but yesterday it turned around. My absence in the next couple of days/weeks had a different reason...
My SO and I had a fight last night.
If I wasn't so angry I would've probably broken up.
He usually mutes his mic when we cam and someone calls him. Yesterday he did as well tellin me its his mum. I didnt worry and waited patiently. After 10 mins his mic turns on again and I hear him say things like "are you sure you're ok beautiful? if you feel bad just text me ok?" I heard that tone before as well as those words. No one on this planet would talk to their mom like that. I noticed something was wrong...
I started ignoring him and answered his question of what was wrong with a harsh "nothing" untill I exploded.
To make things short it ended up bein his ex-gf that he talked to yet he didnt call her on pupose beautiful. He said he was lookin at me but talkin to her and therefore got mixed up. Uhm... yea ??
I was shoutin and cryin so badly if he was serious or if its just supposed to be a joke.
I cant write everything in detail cause it'd be way too long.
Conclusion of it all is:
He got close with her yet doesnt love her.
He loves me and wants to be with me yet isnt sure about our future, cause lookin at it seriously the chance for us to meet is somewhere far down low (which is kinda true)
He doesnt wanna break up cause he truely loves me.
We didnt break up and kinda madeup.
Just a lil bit ago he said he was feelin bad cause of his mom and I said "And what did beautiful say?" bringin back last night and he completely blacked out, went offline and wouldnt talk to me. I bombed him with messages on Facebook untill he got on lol
We fought again.
He basically made it look like I was the evil one for bringin up that he called his ex beautiful and told me that its his mom >_>
I just didnt wanna fight anymore I was so sick of it so I just offered peace and he agreed sayin he will drop it cause he doesnt want us to hurt each other.
Gosh... Are all men like that?? :/
Sometimes its so difficult bein with him cause he becomes such a baby! Starts whinin about how I hurt him eventhough he did even worse damage to me
Yet again through such fights I kinda notice how much he loves me. I know this sounds like a contradiction but idk... I just know him and everything why not and why yes etc so it's easier for me to deal with it but yea...
My best friend said I am unhappy recently (mainly cause of Chris which last week was kinda true cause I didnt talk to him since he was home --> logical conclusion: I miss him/am unhappy)
My mum yet again said I dont seem sad at all
And an other friend told me to just chill right now before jumpin to wrong conclusions (like breakin up)
Right now it's alright, he's goin nuts on some maths stuff he has to do for college and Im tryin to make him twist his nipples so that he'd smile lol
Anyway I basically just wanted to leave a lil update on me and my SO and let you guys know that its not cause of you that Im no on much and that Im sorry, it's just a bunch of stuff goin on
Hope y'all are doin good yes?
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