The end of the line?
It has been two weeks since my SO and I have split up. The reasons at first were very unclear to me when I read his email, all he said was that he no longer wants me to wait for him. We hadn't been talking much the past four months because he had been having alot of internet issues. I of course was very confused and hurt at this because he couldn't even tell me voice to voice, I just got a random email. We have had our problems over the last three years, so I kinda figured he just got tired of it all and gave up.
Two days ago he signs onto msn and he says hello to me, we were talking for a few minutes and he tells me that for the last three weeks he's been in the hospital. Last year around June, we found out he had a stomach tumor, so he had been hospitalized for a few weeks because of that aswell. He tells me that not only is his tumor back but that the doctors have also found a mutant strand of Necrotizing Enterocolitis and believe that he doesn't have much longer (maybe up 6months). I have been going out of my mind the past two days, and today I found out that untill somwhere around February he will be in and out of the hospital during the weekdays, and possibly the weekends depending on his treatment. I have no idea what to do, and what makes it worse is that I can't be there.
It took some courage but, on Saturday I asked him if he had told me not to wait because he learned about the seriousness of his condition. His answer was yes. He says he realised "I have no future with him, that I have my entire life ahead of me, and I shouldn't waste it on a half dead man".
I told him that no matter what happens I will be sitting here waiting for him when ever he needs me, togeather or not. If anyone has any advice as to what I could do to keep from going comepletely insane, ideas would be earnestly welcomed.
Thank you.
Two days ago he signs onto msn and he says hello to me, we were talking for a few minutes and he tells me that for the last three weeks he's been in the hospital. Last year around June, we found out he had a stomach tumor, so he had been hospitalized for a few weeks because of that aswell. He tells me that not only is his tumor back but that the doctors have also found a mutant strand of Necrotizing Enterocolitis and believe that he doesn't have much longer (maybe up 6months). I have been going out of my mind the past two days, and today I found out that untill somwhere around February he will be in and out of the hospital during the weekdays, and possibly the weekends depending on his treatment. I have no idea what to do, and what makes it worse is that I can't be there.
It took some courage but, on Saturday I asked him if he had told me not to wait because he learned about the seriousness of his condition. His answer was yes. He says he realised "I have no future with him, that I have my entire life ahead of me, and I shouldn't waste it on a half dead man".
I told him that no matter what happens I will be sitting here waiting for him when ever he needs me, togeather or not. If anyone has any advice as to what I could do to keep from going comepletely insane, ideas would be earnestly welcomed.
Thank you.
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