Okay, so since I came home to Australia, it's been pretty easy going with Matt and I. It gets me down sometimes, but I've managed to pull through thanks to friends and of course, you guys.
But... I'm leaving for university in a day and for the first week, we'll probably have no contact and from then on, who knows? I'm pretty nervous about meeting judgemental people who will find out about him and laugh at the situation. I'm also anxious to know what the study load is going to be like, and on top of that, how things are going to go with Matt and I...
My parents have bought me a USB Modem, which is great. It is rechargeable and I'm able to use it for Skype, Facebook, and here. So that's good. I just don't think we'll be able to talk much.
I'm also worried about him. He's on a job hunt at the moment, and finding one in England isn't as easy as I had thought... I feel so helpless. I just wish I could do something!
I love him and miss him like crazy. I'm sure he feels the same, or similar, anyway. It's not like our relationship is weakening, anyway. It's simply the lack of contact that will kill me. We don't have definite plans of when we'll see each other next. I want it to be June or July, but I have a feeling I'll have to wait for Christmas time, and even then I'm not sure... I know if we're still together, my parents are willing to send me over to visit him and his family (and some of mine, I hope) but I want him to come here, first. I want him to see where I live and what the area's like and whether or not he could consider living here.
However, I guess we'll see.
And what I'm really saying is, though I won't be on here much, either, I will be looking to all your support to get me through this...
Thank you all, in advance.
But... I'm leaving for university in a day and for the first week, we'll probably have no contact and from then on, who knows? I'm pretty nervous about meeting judgemental people who will find out about him and laugh at the situation. I'm also anxious to know what the study load is going to be like, and on top of that, how things are going to go with Matt and I...
My parents have bought me a USB Modem, which is great. It is rechargeable and I'm able to use it for Skype, Facebook, and here. So that's good. I just don't think we'll be able to talk much.
I'm also worried about him. He's on a job hunt at the moment, and finding one in England isn't as easy as I had thought... I feel so helpless. I just wish I could do something!
I love him and miss him like crazy. I'm sure he feels the same, or similar, anyway. It's not like our relationship is weakening, anyway. It's simply the lack of contact that will kill me. We don't have definite plans of when we'll see each other next. I want it to be June or July, but I have a feeling I'll have to wait for Christmas time, and even then I'm not sure... I know if we're still together, my parents are willing to send me over to visit him and his family (and some of mine, I hope) but I want him to come here, first. I want him to see where I live and what the area's like and whether or not he could consider living here.
However, I guess we'll see.
And what I'm really saying is, though I won't be on here much, either, I will be looking to all your support to get me through this...
Thank you all, in advance.
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