(Preface: I'm in a funk because today is the recommended deadline for sending a parcel to the USA from Canada (by surface, as I can't afford it otherwise) for it to arrive in time for Christmas. I am not finished his scarf (I stayed up until 4am working on it last night and I am still not finished), his other presents aren't wrapped, and the post office is open until 5ish...but parcel pick-up is more like 3 (which is in less than 15 minutes). So...I guess I will have to put it off until tomorrow and hope it gets there on time, but it's so frustrating that I have been dedicating my days lately a lot to his gifts and not much else and I'm still not done! Oi!)
Anyway, I am upset by stuff on Facebook again. I was visiting his profile, because I was going to be a keener and send him one, last congratulations on his recital (I swear that most of my Facebook misfortunes lately are by chance and not creeping). This girl had posted that she was sorry she missed his recital and said she was looking forward to game night with him and was being kind of cutesy (which my current mood finds obnoxious in adults)/ flirty. This is also the same girl who had posted something on the recital page saying she was unlikely to make it, but wanted to know if there would be "partying" after. She was also added as a friend (okay this part is maybe from a little creeping awhile ago) awhile ago when he and I were a bit "off" and he had gone out with some choir friends (also, he had claimed that in that specific choir they were all really cliquey and he never did anything with them) and basically ditched a date we had scheduled that had already been put off, plus never really told me much beyond that. Now, this stuff on its own is annoying, but when I put it together and also remember that he has said that he goes to every campus football or basketball game with just his "sister and dad"....and, yet, this girl makes it seem like it's a regular thing for my SO to be meeting up with her there...I have some alarm bells. In her most recent Facebook post, it seems like she mentioned a boyfriend (I assume) that told her the recital was good...so, maybe there's no pursuit of my boyfriend on her part, but I am feeling insecure, I guess, that he seems to go out of his way lately to tell me he's just done stuff with family or what have you (or will say that he met with blah, blah friend) and fails to mention her?
Blah...and now I just kind of want to flake out on watching Glee with him tonight (we haven't had any sort of "date" in about three weeks) and maybe not talk to him on the phone. There are just too many little things lately and I feel like I'm on overload (and I said it yesterday and reasoned through it in the other thread in a positive light, but it does upset me to think that there is a chance he phoned his friends about the recital before he phoned me...which still makes me feel like there is a rank order and I figure in somewhere further down the list, like I thought originally).
Anyway, I am upset by stuff on Facebook again. I was visiting his profile, because I was going to be a keener and send him one, last congratulations on his recital (I swear that most of my Facebook misfortunes lately are by chance and not creeping). This girl had posted that she was sorry she missed his recital and said she was looking forward to game night with him and was being kind of cutesy (which my current mood finds obnoxious in adults)/ flirty. This is also the same girl who had posted something on the recital page saying she was unlikely to make it, but wanted to know if there would be "partying" after. She was also added as a friend (okay this part is maybe from a little creeping awhile ago) awhile ago when he and I were a bit "off" and he had gone out with some choir friends (also, he had claimed that in that specific choir they were all really cliquey and he never did anything with them) and basically ditched a date we had scheduled that had already been put off, plus never really told me much beyond that. Now, this stuff on its own is annoying, but when I put it together and also remember that he has said that he goes to every campus football or basketball game with just his "sister and dad"....and, yet, this girl makes it seem like it's a regular thing for my SO to be meeting up with her there...I have some alarm bells. In her most recent Facebook post, it seems like she mentioned a boyfriend (I assume) that told her the recital was good...so, maybe there's no pursuit of my boyfriend on her part, but I am feeling insecure, I guess, that he seems to go out of his way lately to tell me he's just done stuff with family or what have you (or will say that he met with blah, blah friend) and fails to mention her?
Blah...and now I just kind of want to flake out on watching Glee with him tonight (we haven't had any sort of "date" in about three weeks) and maybe not talk to him on the phone. There are just too many little things lately and I feel like I'm on overload (and I said it yesterday and reasoned through it in the other thread in a positive light, but it does upset me to think that there is a chance he phoned his friends about the recital before he phoned me...which still makes me feel like there is a rank order and I figure in somewhere further down the list, like I thought originally).
I'd not worry hun.
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