Im just going to call my bf Sir Douchington when he pisses me off.
The latest happening was yesterday. I've been off work because I hurt my back but Im going back tomorow (its just been three days >.>) But anyway, at a "certain" time of the month I get depressed sometimes and I usually just like to talk to someone and its usually my friend or my sister but this time since I was at home when my bf is usually online I thought maybe we could talk for a little bit. I was trying to explain to him while I was feeling so mopey then he just pops up and asks do you mind if I go play one of my games." It kind of hurt my feelings but I did say I really dont want you to go and if you do go, it would hurt my feelings. So he stayed and we talked for maybe a hr then he said he was getting sleepy and by then I was feeling a little better and I thought it was cute because he said we didnt have to stop talking and he'd go to sleep with me and then ..... like 10 seconds later he asked if I'd mind if he went to play his game AGAIN. And my moon went crashing back down. And he was just like well "you know this is usually the time I play with my friends and I did ask you so its not like I just left without saying anything"
I told him not a hour and half ago my response to that and it hadn't changed. All I wanted was to spend time with him since Im off and he seemed to be free. He said thats how he reliefs his stress and whatever but he spends literally like 11 hours playing with these people and then tells me Im just getting mad because he's not at my beck and call.
Then he says well when you come visit and then come live with me I wont have time for the game anyway so I guess Im trying to do it while I still can. And that really struck a nerve with me because now Im like if you dont have time for me now, I dont trust you'll have time for me when Im physically with you. And if thats the case I dont want start a family with you ... at all.
(sorry for the long post ... venting ><)
The latest happening was yesterday. I've been off work because I hurt my back but Im going back tomorow (its just been three days >.>) But anyway, at a "certain" time of the month I get depressed sometimes and I usually just like to talk to someone and its usually my friend or my sister but this time since I was at home when my bf is usually online I thought maybe we could talk for a little bit. I was trying to explain to him while I was feeling so mopey then he just pops up and asks do you mind if I go play one of my games." It kind of hurt my feelings but I did say I really dont want you to go and if you do go, it would hurt my feelings. So he stayed and we talked for maybe a hr then he said he was getting sleepy and by then I was feeling a little better and I thought it was cute because he said we didnt have to stop talking and he'd go to sleep with me and then ..... like 10 seconds later he asked if I'd mind if he went to play his game AGAIN. And my moon went crashing back down. And he was just like well "you know this is usually the time I play with my friends and I did ask you so its not like I just left without saying anything"
I told him not a hour and half ago my response to that and it hadn't changed. All I wanted was to spend time with him since Im off and he seemed to be free. He said thats how he reliefs his stress and whatever but he spends literally like 11 hours playing with these people and then tells me Im just getting mad because he's not at my beck and call.
Then he says well when you come visit and then come live with me I wont have time for the game anyway so I guess Im trying to do it while I still can. And that really struck a nerve with me because now Im like if you dont have time for me now, I dont trust you'll have time for me when Im physically with you. And if thats the case I dont want start a family with you ... at all.
(sorry for the long post ... venting ><)
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