So I guess I have known for a while that this was coming because I have had enough. I told Jared tonight that I thought we should break up. Anyone who reads my blog could probably tell that we have been having problems lately, but I was really trying my best to work through things. Basically, I have recently felt that my needs have not been met in our relationship and I have been trying to hint at this for quite some time, but he always seemed to say, "I'll try harder" (with no action), or there would be silence and he would say "I don't know what to say."
What I really wanted to hear was that he was willing to try harder. That he wanted us to work things out and that he loved me with all of his heart...but that didn't happen.
This was probably one of the hardest things I have done in my life, but apparently it was the right decision because he did not try fighting for us at all. Once again, he was silent. I hung up and he called me back. He said that it is hard to feel committed in a long distance relationship and that doesn't "feel it anymore." He said "I love you," but then he said that he is not in love anymore. Ouch.
Part of me wants to put this all in the past and just completely cut all contact with him, but we have still talked a little tonight (which totally goes against how I think a break-up should be).....blah
So that is that. I guess I will be starting out 2011 with a new start. I have really felt at home at this community since I joined a year and seven months ago, but now I guess my time is up.
Everyone have a happy new year!
What I really wanted to hear was that he was willing to try harder. That he wanted us to work things out and that he loved me with all of his heart...but that didn't happen.
This was probably one of the hardest things I have done in my life, but apparently it was the right decision because he did not try fighting for us at all. Once again, he was silent. I hung up and he called me back. He said that it is hard to feel committed in a long distance relationship and that doesn't "feel it anymore." He said "I love you," but then he said that he is not in love anymore. Ouch.
Part of me wants to put this all in the past and just completely cut all contact with him, but we have still talked a little tonight (which totally goes against how I think a break-up should be).....blah
So that is that. I guess I will be starting out 2011 with a new start. I have really felt at home at this community since I joined a year and seven months ago, but now I guess my time is up.
Everyone have a happy new year!
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