Im in those rough situations where you just want to stay in bed all day and cuddle up with your SO`s tshirt. Last friday it started being worse with me being so extremly sensitive.
I cant help I could cry all the time when I think about my boyfriend.
Yesterday we wanted to talk on the phone but it was nearly impossible for me since I was hurting so bad and like I said, I started to cry all the time.
We delayed the phone talk to this week someday or next saturday because of the time difference.
Last night when I went to bed, I looked at the pictures of my boyfriend which were in the box I have gotten for xmas.
It made me so sad, looking at his face and knowing I cant touch it or speak to my boyfriend in person.
I was lying awake for several hours. Trying to sleep whilst crying my eyes out. After that I calmed down a little and almost fell asleep but then I couldnt breath properly and that made me stay awake for another couple hours. It felt like something really tried to stop me from breathing and I was afraid I couldnt get enough air anymore.
This morning I was really happy to be alive since I really did thought I wont make it. I know that sounds strange and like a story but it really happend like this and I dont know if it was because I worry so much and dont know how to go on from situations like this!?
Did anyone experience something like this? How do you cheer yourselfs up when you are feeling like the worst?
I know my boyfriend cant do anything and he also knows that and feels sort of useless since he cant do something for me except writing messages.
Does anyone has an idea how to feel better?
I cant help I could cry all the time when I think about my boyfriend.
Yesterday we wanted to talk on the phone but it was nearly impossible for me since I was hurting so bad and like I said, I started to cry all the time.
We delayed the phone talk to this week someday or next saturday because of the time difference.
Last night when I went to bed, I looked at the pictures of my boyfriend which were in the box I have gotten for xmas.
It made me so sad, looking at his face and knowing I cant touch it or speak to my boyfriend in person.
I was lying awake for several hours. Trying to sleep whilst crying my eyes out. After that I calmed down a little and almost fell asleep but then I couldnt breath properly and that made me stay awake for another couple hours. It felt like something really tried to stop me from breathing and I was afraid I couldnt get enough air anymore.
This morning I was really happy to be alive since I really did thought I wont make it. I know that sounds strange and like a story but it really happend like this and I dont know if it was because I worry so much and dont know how to go on from situations like this!?
Did anyone experience something like this? How do you cheer yourselfs up when you are feeling like the worst?
I know my boyfriend cant do anything and he also knows that and feels sort of useless since he cant do something for me except writing messages.
Does anyone has an idea how to feel better?
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