Two weeks have passed since my SO said that his phone wasn't working right. I've been so patient, even been tempted by one of my guy friends and I've waited every single day by the phone for him to text me and I just don't know what to do now.....I'm crying while typing this too.
I checked for his fb, it's deleted now. I checked his myspace and he's talking to other girls on it now, they're giving him their number and everything.
I took the hugest risk loving this man, and now I feel so utterly betrayed. I just don't feel like living now. I had my whole future with him mapped out, and for the first time, I was focused on the man instead of our future. I needed him like I've never needed anything in my entire life. I even used to dream about our first baby, that we'd already named and now I feel so worthless and alone, I just can't live without him. I'm not being dramatic, I'm completely serious. My life is complete crap, and he made it better by being there for me and being interested in me as a person. I'm so unhappy and I don't have anyone to turn to. I look at the walls in my room and all I want is something new, something that doesn't remind me of him.
God I wish I was dead....
I checked for his fb, it's deleted now. I checked his myspace and he's talking to other girls on it now, they're giving him their number and everything.
I took the hugest risk loving this man, and now I feel so utterly betrayed. I just don't feel like living now. I had my whole future with him mapped out, and for the first time, I was focused on the man instead of our future. I needed him like I've never needed anything in my entire life. I even used to dream about our first baby, that we'd already named and now I feel so worthless and alone, I just can't live without him. I'm not being dramatic, I'm completely serious. My life is complete crap, and he made it better by being there for me and being interested in me as a person. I'm so unhappy and I don't have anyone to turn to. I look at the walls in my room and all I want is something new, something that doesn't remind me of him.
God I wish I was dead....
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