I have always wanted to avoid at all costs being the clingy, demanding girlfriend. I promised myself that I would be that cool understanding girlfriend, who his friends wouldn't start ragging on him for "Staying home to talk to your imaginary girlfriend yet again??!" And yet, and yet...
I have a massive project due tomorrow at five, and I'm so far behind in it that it required the time tonight I usually have talking to him. Since he's pretty busy during the workweek too, and today is his one day off, I was really pretty broken up about having to cancel. I cried somewhat on the drive back home. At the same time though I felt bad about it, like I was pushing him away and not making enough time for him.
So basically, I'm conflicted between: Am I being too clingy and demanding of his time, or am I really not doing my part in making time for him and keep shoving him around at the demands of my schedule?
As for not doing my part in the relationship, I guess I don't know whether its because I'm adjusting really well to the distance, or because I'm genuinely slowly losing interest.
I never have a problem with trusting anyone else, or believing in anyone else. When it comes to myself all bets are off. -_-
I have a massive project due tomorrow at five, and I'm so far behind in it that it required the time tonight I usually have talking to him. Since he's pretty busy during the workweek too, and today is his one day off, I was really pretty broken up about having to cancel. I cried somewhat on the drive back home. At the same time though I felt bad about it, like I was pushing him away and not making enough time for him.
So basically, I'm conflicted between: Am I being too clingy and demanding of his time, or am I really not doing my part in making time for him and keep shoving him around at the demands of my schedule?
As for not doing my part in the relationship, I guess I don't know whether its because I'm adjusting really well to the distance, or because I'm genuinely slowly losing interest.
I never have a problem with trusting anyone else, or believing in anyone else. When it comes to myself all bets are off. -_-
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