I'm A Little Grumpy

[jlb14]

I just needed to vent to people who will understand why I'm upset.

Last week my Beau (literally his name is Beau!) told me the next time we can get together is next weekend. I took off of work because I wanted to spend more then a few hours with him. Since that has been what has happened the last two months while he has been in competitive volleyball season. I would be lucky to spend five hours together at a time with him the last two months.

Last night he told me he is thinking about going home next weekend which would mean that that would push off us seeing each-other another weekend. I would go home with him but I have a baby shower. One reason this was going to work was because the baby shower is 20 minutes away from where he goes to school.

I am trying to be un-selfish because he hasn't gone home in awhile due to his season and I know it isn't 100% set in stone but I really bummed.

I am also bummed because Thursday is our three year anniversary and this weekend was going to be perfect to celebrate it.

Thanks for listening. I hope I get to see him this weekend. Three weeks is long enough but I've had a few job interviews that I really could use a hug and his support for. I guess some days are easier then others and today is a really hard day.

[jlb14]

I hope this does not come off as selfish or whiny. I know many people who be happy with this and many people who every three weeks would be amazing. I am always appreciative when I can see him. It's just disappointing when you look forward to something that doesn't work.

I hope this clarifies things.

[LadyMarchHare]

It's understandable you'd be pretty let down by this. You were told a time you two could get together and then the story gets changed on you. Even if there's a good reason behind it, chances are if any plans you were looking forward to were changed like that, you'd feel upset to some degree. He's been busy, you've missed him, but now everything's been pushed back which makes it not only a longer wait, but unideal for any right-timed anniversary plans.

Stuff like this you gotta roll with the punches and take it a day at a time. If you guys don't see each other now, then there is the later date. If you guys DO get together sooner than the 'new' date, then fabulous. In the end the point is you see each other and have a good time whether it's a few days from now or a few weeks. Plenty of folks celebrate their anniversaries when they can, not necessarily on or right around the exact date. We celebrated our first year a couple weeks early because that's when I planned my visit and so that's when I gave him his present instead of waiting. On the actual day all we did was text, but it was still good enough for me as it was essentially better than nothing. Good luck.

[acroush]

I understand. I hate when I get my hopes up just to have them shattered. Hang in there hun! You will see your Beau soon enough. He needs to see his family too, but I know how hard it is to share your man...

[His_Critter]

I hope this does not come off as selfish or whiny. I know many people who be happy with this and many people who every three weeks would be amazing. I am always appreciative when I can see him. It's just disappointing when you look forward to something that doesn't work.

I hope this clarifies things.

honey I get it. I see my man every weekend and I'd be bummed if we had to cancel one...

[rsvpnj]

I can understand feeling bummed about it...I would too... especially since your anniversary is coming up... Does he realize that?

[hillke]

My boyfriend's name is Beau too! I've never met another one!

I'm with you on this. If he made plans with you, that comes first. If he had made plans at home first, that would come first. It's just logical. My Beau does this all the time too... figures.

[Zephii]

Tell him. Always tell him how you feel. You've already taken the time off. He can go home next time, without getting your hopes up. Good luck

[jlb14]

Thanks everyone. It is so nice to FINALLY be with people who understand why I feel the way I feel.

He does realize our anniversary is coming up. We talked about it last weekend. He hasn't seen his family much lately...partly because he chose to go to Florida (I couldn't go because there wasn't enough room) over Spring Break. That trip unfortunately ruined some plans of ours too...

I guess we'll see. I won't know until he talks to his ride but it makes taking off of work difficult.

On a positive note I had a telephone interview yesterday and today I found out I qualified for a second interview at the end of the month. That has brightened my day. I am lucky because there are not many teaching jobs anywhere and this will help me get closer to my Beau.

[nic&matt]

Hard days are the worst...especially when your guy/girl isn't there!
Congrats though on the interview!!! Way to stay on the positive side!!!

[jlb14]

I thought I should update!

I am seeing him this weekend. His trip to Houston has been a little bumpy for us, which I expected. He got a little mad yesterday at me but later apologized. He still hasn't said he is excited for me to come but I'm giving him time. I finally just threw it out there and he smiled and said it back.

I just can't help the nervousness I feel. He's done really stupid and hurtful things the past and two weeks ago was the worst. He is striving to prove to me through more communication that he does want this relationship. He has gotten better over the last week and a half. He actually video chatted me first tonight. Something that hasn't happened in a month. At first he seemed a little closed off but by the end he seemed more relaxed and smiled a lot.

I really am trying to be happy but I can't help thinking something is around the corner that is only going to lead to me getting hurt when he does something stupid. I don't want to feel like that. I guess time will tell but he has made great first steps to proving his love to me.