I just had a fight with my boyfriend and it made me realize some things.
First of all , i'm sorry if i make any mistakes , i'm not really good in english.
Me and my boyfriend have been dating for 4 months now , and it's been great. We met around last christmas , and then i came back home and we texted alot , talked on msn and stuff. We had so much in common , i started liking him alot. After only a few days , we were already in a relationship. It was P-E-R-F-E-C-T ! We live 5 hours of car apart , but the longest we went without seeing each other was 3 weeks , so we see each other quite often. The problem is, this relationship , over time , has turned me in someone i hate. Recently i've realized that me and my boyfriend have really different values , opinions , etc. He would say things that make me soooo angry at him . Some of his opinions are so strong and different from mine , i even wonder if i would of gone out with him in the first place if i knew him better. I also feel like he always have to bring me down , make me feel like he's better than me. Recently he told me that he realised hes the one that is always right when we argue about something . I hate it . I told him about it , and he just don't see the difference between me and him , and he just don't get it when i get mad at him. I've been jealous and paranoid recently , always accusing him of loving me less because he never find time to skype or text me . I would even think of leaving him . I get so angry at him for random reason , i just wonder if the relationship is worth the pain. I do love him , a lot , but there is always that little voice inside of me telling me i'd be better off on my own . But then , when i think of leaving him , i can't breath and i start crying. I always tell him how i feel , and how i feel i'm always making effort to talk to him and he doesn't , and i don't know how much money i've spent in bus ticket to go see him , and he never did come visit me , only when he had free ride. I keep all my money to go visit him , while he spend is money on a new cell phone or other stuff. I feel less important to him than he his to me. This relationship has been drowning all my energy , and i don't know what to do. Then , we see each other in real life and i fall in love all over again , because he so sweet and kind when we are togheter. But as soon as we separate , i feel alone and jealous again. I started being really jealous the day he admitted he cheated on his first girlfriend. I tought i'd be okay with it , but then everytime I see him talk to a girl on facebook or something , I always wonder : what if ... I always feel the need to test his love for me . This is not me , i've never been like that , I always tought i was better than that , that i trusted people more than that . And this relationship is turning me in a crazy jealous girlfriend , and i hate it.
I know this post isnt the most coherent , but I had to get this out of my system. Does anyone have any advices on what to do when you realize you've become someone you hate in a LDR and that your boyfriend seems like he doesn't quite care that much about you ? And that you are quite opposite from each other ?
First of all , i'm sorry if i make any mistakes , i'm not really good in english.
Me and my boyfriend have been dating for 4 months now , and it's been great. We met around last christmas , and then i came back home and we texted alot , talked on msn and stuff. We had so much in common , i started liking him alot. After only a few days , we were already in a relationship. It was P-E-R-F-E-C-T ! We live 5 hours of car apart , but the longest we went without seeing each other was 3 weeks , so we see each other quite often. The problem is, this relationship , over time , has turned me in someone i hate. Recently i've realized that me and my boyfriend have really different values , opinions , etc. He would say things that make me soooo angry at him . Some of his opinions are so strong and different from mine , i even wonder if i would of gone out with him in the first place if i knew him better. I also feel like he always have to bring me down , make me feel like he's better than me. Recently he told me that he realised hes the one that is always right when we argue about something . I hate it . I told him about it , and he just don't see the difference between me and him , and he just don't get it when i get mad at him. I've been jealous and paranoid recently , always accusing him of loving me less because he never find time to skype or text me . I would even think of leaving him . I get so angry at him for random reason , i just wonder if the relationship is worth the pain. I do love him , a lot , but there is always that little voice inside of me telling me i'd be better off on my own . But then , when i think of leaving him , i can't breath and i start crying. I always tell him how i feel , and how i feel i'm always making effort to talk to him and he doesn't , and i don't know how much money i've spent in bus ticket to go see him , and he never did come visit me , only when he had free ride. I keep all my money to go visit him , while he spend is money on a new cell phone or other stuff. I feel less important to him than he his to me. This relationship has been drowning all my energy , and i don't know what to do. Then , we see each other in real life and i fall in love all over again , because he so sweet and kind when we are togheter. But as soon as we separate , i feel alone and jealous again. I started being really jealous the day he admitted he cheated on his first girlfriend. I tought i'd be okay with it , but then everytime I see him talk to a girl on facebook or something , I always wonder : what if ... I always feel the need to test his love for me . This is not me , i've never been like that , I always tought i was better than that , that i trusted people more than that . And this relationship is turning me in a crazy jealous girlfriend , and i hate it.
I know this post isnt the most coherent , but I had to get this out of my system. Does anyone have any advices on what to do when you realize you've become someone you hate in a LDR and that your boyfriend seems like he doesn't quite care that much about you ? And that you are quite opposite from each other ?
Comment