My heart's about to burst! (warning:excessivegirliness)
>////////< omg. OMG.
omgomgomgomg.
i just, i just need to get this out!
Nat just got back from camping with his friends today...and and i messaged him. He's been gone since Wednesday, missed him, you know? hewassosad. i've been sitting here for 2 hours just trying to make him smile, and i was so worried about him. i was listing every good thing i could think of about him, and how much he means to me, and others, aannnd... i mentioned 2014/2015. I hadn't explained what it meant, so he asked. He said he needed something to look forward to. I didn't think i would tell him about the possibility of me going to study abroad in Brisbane like this, (or even, for awhile). He just, he just touched my heart.
But I did.
And i don't think i'll ever regret it.
His mood turned around, he even was naming universities there for me to look into (especially his own, haha), and he was saying as long as i helped out, i could stay with him (I'm shaking). He's so sweet, he said he'd sleep on the couch.. (I started crying. I'm not completely sure why even, haha. Happiness? Nervousness? The sudden tangibility of the situation?) I'd been so scared he wouldn't take the idea positively, for some unknowable reason, but, like always, his reaction completely...completely and overwhelmingly exceeded my hopes. (I can't stop smiling.) <3 That's not even the end of the story! (Ever blush so hard it feels like a sunburn?) Amongst all these sweet little things he was rattling off, he revealed that he's going to be visiting a lot sooner than we'd thought before. Just next year, and he's here, and he'll be real. I'll be able to touch him. I'll be in his arms, giving all the hugs I've owed over these years. (My heart feels like its overflowing)
So close. He's so close. (I can't even think right now)
I apologize for any errors i may have made typing this, i, i just can't calm down enough to check
I'm so excited, scared, hopeful, amazed, overjoyed, nervous! So everything!
(I love him, I really, really, honestly, love Nathanial)
omgomgomgomg.
i just, i just need to get this out!
Nat just got back from camping with his friends today...and and i messaged him. He's been gone since Wednesday, missed him, you know? hewassosad. i've been sitting here for 2 hours just trying to make him smile, and i was so worried about him. i was listing every good thing i could think of about him, and how much he means to me, and others, aannnd... i mentioned 2014/2015. I hadn't explained what it meant, so he asked. He said he needed something to look forward to. I didn't think i would tell him about the possibility of me going to study abroad in Brisbane like this, (or even, for awhile). He just, he just touched my heart.
But I did.
And i don't think i'll ever regret it.
His mood turned around, he even was naming universities there for me to look into (especially his own, haha), and he was saying as long as i helped out, i could stay with him (I'm shaking). He's so sweet, he said he'd sleep on the couch.. (I started crying. I'm not completely sure why even, haha. Happiness? Nervousness? The sudden tangibility of the situation?) I'd been so scared he wouldn't take the idea positively, for some unknowable reason, but, like always, his reaction completely...completely and overwhelmingly exceeded my hopes. (I can't stop smiling.) <3 That's not even the end of the story! (Ever blush so hard it feels like a sunburn?) Amongst all these sweet little things he was rattling off, he revealed that he's going to be visiting a lot sooner than we'd thought before. Just next year, and he's here, and he'll be real. I'll be able to touch him. I'll be in his arms, giving all the hugs I've owed over these years. (My heart feels like its overflowing)
So close. He's so close. (I can't even think right now)
I apologize for any errors i may have made typing this, i, i just can't calm down enough to check
I'm so excited, scared, hopeful, amazed, overjoyed, nervous! So everything!
(I love him, I really, really, honestly, love Nathanial)
thank you so much everyone!
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