Puess... Apparently I was not respected enough for him to talk to me at all. As some of you know, during my visit, my SO decided to act shady, not be affectionate, be confused about how he felt towards me, started nit picking everything I did or said, and complained about me... so after I asked him what he wanted, he couldn't tell me, so I just ended things. He was acting immature, wouldn't talk to me about anything, and I had just found out my grandfather was in the hospital and actively dying, and I have comprehensive exams, I just couldn't handle someone with iffy feelings for the next month. He went from being part of my priorities to just not near my least of priorities. I've had guys drag things out so long, I cling to hope, and then voila, nada. Things end. This time I just decided to speed things up, since all signs pointed towards him losing interest, and not wanting me there, even though he SAID something completely contradictory (he loved me, didnt want to break up, etc). I honestly just cannot handle it right now. too many other things on my mind. Well, I think he loved my decision so much he did ABANDON me in HIS country, without taking me to the hospital to seek medical attention (I spent the previous days sick, diarrhea and vomitting and hadn't kept food down in over 5 days). He dropped me off at the hotel, said he'd call me later to see how I was doing, and then I never heard from him again.
I sent him a very angry text message asking him why he felt I deserved to be disrespected so much, why he couldn't just break up with me if he wanted to break up, why he wouldnt tell me how he was feeling, why he didnt tell his mother WHY I FELT SO UNCOMFORTABLE IN HER HOME (be cause of her son), and WHY he felt it was okay to just leave me in a foreign country by myself for a week, sick, during a holiday, with no family or friends....WHY!? He told me it was because he felt so ashamed. He had apparently lost interest. Which is interesting since he had sex with me the night before, and told me he wanted to wait so I didnt think thats all he wanted me for. He called me beautiful, he told me he loved me, we did our little... tengo una pregunta? si? porque estas taaaaan hermosa? jajaja porque eres taaaan mentiroso?! joke. its our cute little inside joke. I told him how happy I was with him, and he agreed I made him feel the same reason, and then the next morning/day he has no interest in me?! I just dont understand.
Why go through the trouble introducing me to everyone important in your life, telling everyone that I am the love of your life, I am the woman you want to marry, you want me to be the one to have your children, how amazing I would be as a mother, what our house is going to look like, showing everyone the ring I bought you and the ring you bought me. Convincing your mother that I was IT. Convincing her that I was the last girl you ever planned on bringing home. Convincing MY parents how serious you were about their daughter, talking to them on the phone. Having our parents meet over the phone. Convincing ME that I had every reason in the world to trust you, that I could depend on you, told me how special I was to you, how I was God's gift to your life. And then letting me break up with you, while telling me that you would always love me, and you would always think of me as an Angel that made him the happiest person on earth. Letting me walk away, letting me just rot away in a hotel room, letting me be so alone, letting me down, letting me just fall apart.
I loved him so much. And I really honestly thought he loved me too. I had my moments of jealousy, and uneasy feelings of having him so far away, but when I would gather myself, I would ALWAYS remember that I do trust him, that I do love him, and I trusted him to take care of my heart and treat me well. Boy was I ever so wrong...
Goodbye All. Please add me on Facebook if you would like, just mention LFAD.
Good Luck to all of you wonderful people, thank you so much for your support over these months. I will forever be so grateful.
I sent him a very angry text message asking him why he felt I deserved to be disrespected so much, why he couldn't just break up with me if he wanted to break up, why he wouldnt tell me how he was feeling, why he didnt tell his mother WHY I FELT SO UNCOMFORTABLE IN HER HOME (be cause of her son), and WHY he felt it was okay to just leave me in a foreign country by myself for a week, sick, during a holiday, with no family or friends....WHY!? He told me it was because he felt so ashamed. He had apparently lost interest. Which is interesting since he had sex with me the night before, and told me he wanted to wait so I didnt think thats all he wanted me for. He called me beautiful, he told me he loved me, we did our little... tengo una pregunta? si? porque estas taaaaan hermosa? jajaja porque eres taaaan mentiroso?! joke. its our cute little inside joke. I told him how happy I was with him, and he agreed I made him feel the same reason, and then the next morning/day he has no interest in me?! I just dont understand.
Why go through the trouble introducing me to everyone important in your life, telling everyone that I am the love of your life, I am the woman you want to marry, you want me to be the one to have your children, how amazing I would be as a mother, what our house is going to look like, showing everyone the ring I bought you and the ring you bought me. Convincing your mother that I was IT. Convincing her that I was the last girl you ever planned on bringing home. Convincing MY parents how serious you were about their daughter, talking to them on the phone. Having our parents meet over the phone. Convincing ME that I had every reason in the world to trust you, that I could depend on you, told me how special I was to you, how I was God's gift to your life. And then letting me break up with you, while telling me that you would always love me, and you would always think of me as an Angel that made him the happiest person on earth. Letting me walk away, letting me just rot away in a hotel room, letting me be so alone, letting me down, letting me just fall apart.
I loved him so much. And I really honestly thought he loved me too. I had my moments of jealousy, and uneasy feelings of having him so far away, but when I would gather myself, I would ALWAYS remember that I do trust him, that I do love him, and I trusted him to take care of my heart and treat me well. Boy was I ever so wrong...
Goodbye All. Please add me on Facebook if you would like, just mention LFAD.
Good Luck to all of you wonderful people, thank you so much for your support over these months. I will forever be so grateful.
I agree with Miramaid that time will heal and you will eventually find someone who deserves you. Stay strong and always remember that there are people who love you, including us in LFAD. Are you intending to leave this forum as well? Would be glad to have you around but we'll understand if you don't want to. Take care love! 
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