unfucking believable!!!!!
im sure everyone must be sick of my posts.. but i feel that drama never leaves my side!! i just want to be left alone to live my life without this landmines in my way.
Im finally getting over the face that my mother wants to skype my SO for somereason.. ive decided to let it be. she must be concerened, i know she is actually. her baby is moving on with her life and taking on Japan too. Today I quit my job. this was really tough because my father is a partner here at the firm. he knows i want to leave.. and actually telling them my decision wasnt so difficult because we both knew what the answer was.
NOW the drama resumes.... my BEST friend calls me ( she happens to be engaged to my SO's brother) and tells me she needs to tell me someothing important now that she knew my decsision to leave. she says that people have been telling her that my SO may not want me to go down there. and that he needs his own space. OK heres the thing.. the "people" are his coniving mother & sister. Two of the most twisted woman out there. His sister is not only trying to fuck up our relationship but has tried to ruin my best friends relationsjhip in the past also. SO the things his sister said were 'i know my brother and i know he needs to spend time alone and they need to be apart. shes a good perosn but he needs to be on his own for a while." this did not come fromhis mouth apparently.. just hers.
so heres the thing.. i talk to my SO every single day. infact twice a day, since hes been gone. i know for a fact he speaks to me more than anyone. he knows i want to come down and knows the risks im taking to do it. i have had nothing but tough love and support from him. he wants me to be 100% about this. everyday he tells me how much hes so in love with me and cant wait for me to be there. hes even trying to find me jobs. Once ive asked him if going down there would be reigning on his parade. He said that was impossible because he would still do the things he needs to do and want to do whether im there or not. being there would be the greatest thing in the world to him. to be in a country he loves and to be with the woman he loves.
i dont know how to feel. i feel fucking angry about hearing this.. im angry that people would say this. Could this be true? could he really feel this way and not have the heart to tell me? I am putting my entire life on the line to go there. money, my job, my life and he knows this.. and would be to afraid to admit not wanting me there?? i dont think so i.. i truthfully dont think so.. i think this is work of his evil mother and sister..
please... LFAD'ers.. please tell me what you feel because my brain needs a god damn break.
im sure everyone must be sick of my posts.. but i feel that drama never leaves my side!! i just want to be left alone to live my life without this landmines in my way.
Im finally getting over the face that my mother wants to skype my SO for somereason.. ive decided to let it be. she must be concerened, i know she is actually. her baby is moving on with her life and taking on Japan too. Today I quit my job. this was really tough because my father is a partner here at the firm. he knows i want to leave.. and actually telling them my decision wasnt so difficult because we both knew what the answer was.
NOW the drama resumes.... my BEST friend calls me ( she happens to be engaged to my SO's brother) and tells me she needs to tell me someothing important now that she knew my decsision to leave. she says that people have been telling her that my SO may not want me to go down there. and that he needs his own space. OK heres the thing.. the "people" are his coniving mother & sister. Two of the most twisted woman out there. His sister is not only trying to fuck up our relationship but has tried to ruin my best friends relationsjhip in the past also. SO the things his sister said were 'i know my brother and i know he needs to spend time alone and they need to be apart. shes a good perosn but he needs to be on his own for a while." this did not come fromhis mouth apparently.. just hers.
so heres the thing.. i talk to my SO every single day. infact twice a day, since hes been gone. i know for a fact he speaks to me more than anyone. he knows i want to come down and knows the risks im taking to do it. i have had nothing but tough love and support from him. he wants me to be 100% about this. everyday he tells me how much hes so in love with me and cant wait for me to be there. hes even trying to find me jobs. Once ive asked him if going down there would be reigning on his parade. He said that was impossible because he would still do the things he needs to do and want to do whether im there or not. being there would be the greatest thing in the world to him. to be in a country he loves and to be with the woman he loves.
i dont know how to feel. i feel fucking angry about hearing this.. im angry that people would say this. Could this be true? could he really feel this way and not have the heart to tell me? I am putting my entire life on the line to go there. money, my job, my life and he knows this.. and would be to afraid to admit not wanting me there?? i dont think so i.. i truthfully dont think so.. i think this is work of his evil mother and sister..
please... LFAD'ers.. please tell me what you feel because my brain needs a god damn break.
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