So, me and my SO have been dating just about 1 month 2 weeks, and he had made a decision to not tell his friends about us because he didn't want to deal with the inevitable ribbing. I understood, was fine with it.
Well yesterday I was txting him and apparently he got up and left his cell phone on the chair near his friend. I didn't know, kept texting and said "I want to be yours" in reply to something he had said. His friend read, and confronted him about it when he got back. It wasn't bad, his friend was civil cause his girlfriend was right there. However, HBB didn't admit we were in love, figuring maybe 'just liking' a girl from 3000 miles away would be easier for his friends to accept than loving one. He told me, and I was fine with it...if anything I felt bad that inadvertently I had let the proverbial cat out of the bag.
Flash forward to today, he is txting me again, and I write back to something he said with "..and thats why I love you ". His friend read this one too, and now his friend knows we are in love....or at least I love him. I feel like crap, like I should have known somehow and not typed that. I told him this He says I shouldn't feel bad, that 'it doesn't matter now' but I do! I really do, like knots in tummy bad. I actually had to essentially blow him off and go DO something else because I couldn't keep talking to him. I am not mad at him, or upset with him at all...just the situation. I have never been in this position before, and it makes me so uncomfortable...and I worry. I think a part of the issue is I worry that his friends giving him a hard time about it for the next 2 months till he sees me will hurt us somehow. Like maybe they will talk him out of it. I know thats crazy, but it scares me.
Overall I just feel horrid, and on top of this he has to spend the next 24 hours with all his mates for their annual 'film fest' and the rule is no phones so I won't even be able to talk to him. I feel so needy, as if 24 hours will KILL me, but with what just happened...its bad timing. I just can't kick this nervous feeling
Well yesterday I was txting him and apparently he got up and left his cell phone on the chair near his friend. I didn't know, kept texting and said "I want to be yours" in reply to something he had said. His friend read, and confronted him about it when he got back. It wasn't bad, his friend was civil cause his girlfriend was right there. However, HBB didn't admit we were in love, figuring maybe 'just liking' a girl from 3000 miles away would be easier for his friends to accept than loving one. He told me, and I was fine with it...if anything I felt bad that inadvertently I had let the proverbial cat out of the bag.
Flash forward to today, he is txting me again, and I write back to something he said with "..and thats why I love you ". His friend read this one too, and now his friend knows we are in love....or at least I love him. I feel like crap, like I should have known somehow and not typed that. I told him this He says I shouldn't feel bad, that 'it doesn't matter now' but I do! I really do, like knots in tummy bad. I actually had to essentially blow him off and go DO something else because I couldn't keep talking to him. I am not mad at him, or upset with him at all...just the situation. I have never been in this position before, and it makes me so uncomfortable...and I worry. I think a part of the issue is I worry that his friends giving him a hard time about it for the next 2 months till he sees me will hurt us somehow. Like maybe they will talk him out of it. I know thats crazy, but it scares me.
Overall I just feel horrid, and on top of this he has to spend the next 24 hours with all his mates for their annual 'film fest' and the rule is no phones so I won't even be able to talk to him. I feel so needy, as if 24 hours will KILL me, but with what just happened...its bad timing. I just can't kick this nervous feeling
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