Sorry for the long post in advance!
My relationship is a little complicated, like most LDRs are I'm sure. We have been together for almost 3 years now, we have a wonderful relationship, we love each other so so so much! He supports me and I do the same for him of course. We are in our 30s if that makes any difference. BUT then there is the complicated aspect of it. We live in the same country but his parents are from Egypt and came to America quite some time ago (idk when exactly), they are very religious and still hold their culture standards. They expect a lot from my SO, like a great career, to stay true to their religion, and marrying a real nice girl... from their church preferably.
Well at the start of our relationship, we weren't supposed to turn into anything serious. In his parents eyes, I am not someone that is compatible with their son. I have tattoos, I have a daughter, I am divorced (considered a sin to remarry in their religion), we met online, I've got no major career, etc.. we were supposed to just enjoy each other until it was time to go our separate ways and from that he never planned to tell his parents about our relationship. Well.. that never happened. Instead we fell in love and have been inseparable ever since.. Only thing is, they still don't know about me. About a year and 1/2 ago he mentioned to me that he did eventually want to let his parents know about me and we would take it from there. But that wasn't going to happen until he finished all of his exams and finished med school. Cool.
During his schooling, I always traveled to him. He was doing his rotations in a different state than where his parents lived and it was just easier to "sneak around" but ever since COVID happened everything has been virtual and hes been at home with his parents, so I haven't been able to see him. He finished med school, took all his exams and was ready to finally tell them.. Buuut he didn't, his anxiety absolutely eats him alive when it comes to this and it just keeps getting pushed back and back. FINALLY he decided "okay, I will tell them mid Feb and I will come visit you" I was happy, ready to be with him again, ready to not be a secret anymore.. Just ready to have this out of the way.
He's been losing sleep over the anxiety from telling them, all the while working on his weight loss and doing interviews for hospitals and all this other stuff. So with my stresses and his stresses, I told him to just wait. And now I am fucking sad. I don't want this to be something he does just because I want it. He tells me he wants to tell him but the pressure of it all is just too much. April will be a year since I have seen him and its driving me insane. I miss him so fucking much. He starts residency in July and I will hopefully be able to visit him then but honestly, I want him in MY bed for once, I want him to meet MY family, I just want him here for a change. I feel like time is being wasted.
I don't really want any suggestions on what to do because I've already decided to just keep being patient, he will tell them when he is ready. Just wanted to get the stress of it all off my chest and be around like minded people. I won't give him ultimatums or break up with him because this love we have is just too important. I have been nothing but patient and I am starting to run on fumes here... Hopefully this changes soon. Hopefully.
My relationship is a little complicated, like most LDRs are I'm sure. We have been together for almost 3 years now, we have a wonderful relationship, we love each other so so so much! He supports me and I do the same for him of course. We are in our 30s if that makes any difference. BUT then there is the complicated aspect of it. We live in the same country but his parents are from Egypt and came to America quite some time ago (idk when exactly), they are very religious and still hold their culture standards. They expect a lot from my SO, like a great career, to stay true to their religion, and marrying a real nice girl... from their church preferably.
Well at the start of our relationship, we weren't supposed to turn into anything serious. In his parents eyes, I am not someone that is compatible with their son. I have tattoos, I have a daughter, I am divorced (considered a sin to remarry in their religion), we met online, I've got no major career, etc.. we were supposed to just enjoy each other until it was time to go our separate ways and from that he never planned to tell his parents about our relationship. Well.. that never happened. Instead we fell in love and have been inseparable ever since.. Only thing is, they still don't know about me. About a year and 1/2 ago he mentioned to me that he did eventually want to let his parents know about me and we would take it from there. But that wasn't going to happen until he finished all of his exams and finished med school. Cool.
During his schooling, I always traveled to him. He was doing his rotations in a different state than where his parents lived and it was just easier to "sneak around" but ever since COVID happened everything has been virtual and hes been at home with his parents, so I haven't been able to see him. He finished med school, took all his exams and was ready to finally tell them.. Buuut he didn't, his anxiety absolutely eats him alive when it comes to this and it just keeps getting pushed back and back. FINALLY he decided "okay, I will tell them mid Feb and I will come visit you" I was happy, ready to be with him again, ready to not be a secret anymore.. Just ready to have this out of the way.
He's been losing sleep over the anxiety from telling them, all the while working on his weight loss and doing interviews for hospitals and all this other stuff. So with my stresses and his stresses, I told him to just wait. And now I am fucking sad. I don't want this to be something he does just because I want it. He tells me he wants to tell him but the pressure of it all is just too much. April will be a year since I have seen him and its driving me insane. I miss him so fucking much. He starts residency in July and I will hopefully be able to visit him then but honestly, I want him in MY bed for once, I want him to meet MY family, I just want him here for a change. I feel like time is being wasted.
I don't really want any suggestions on what to do because I've already decided to just keep being patient, he will tell them when he is ready. Just wanted to get the stress of it all off my chest and be around like minded people. I won't give him ultimatums or break up with him because this love we have is just too important. I have been nothing but patient and I am starting to run on fumes here... Hopefully this changes soon. Hopefully.
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