Okay, so seems like my travel all the way from Poland to Australia, didn't quite work the way i hoped, but I still think it's for the best.
We have decided to end it, because there seems to be no end to the distance at the moment and we are both young (im 20, he's 22), we still need to invest in ourselves and shape our personalities.
He cannot afford to move either to UK, nor USA (even though he said that if he manages to save pennies up, he will travel to live with me)... and I am still doing my Uni degree, and going to Houston for 2 years in September. So we have been in a LDR for 2 years already and it would only be half way through... which with only one visit a year and a horrible, horrible time difference, we figured we could not do it. I had major trust issues and insecurities, and he needs touch and 'being there'.
We will probably remain friends for a while too, because he was not only my SO, but also my best friend. And I was his.
I asked him to cuddle me to sleep for the last time, he said it wasn't the best idea in the current situation. Which is fair enough, and I do understand that now (after 2 hours).
And he also said that he doesn't believe in having just this ONE person in the world to be the perfect match, that he fell in love before... and that he had fun times.. and this is what he wants to remember from our relationship too. So that didn't make me feel special, but he apologised basically straight away.
The hardest thing to do after the talk? To walk out his door... I didn't want to do that, he didnt want to let me go. This was horrible. I hate the fact that he lost faith in LDRs ... that he didnt like the virtual thing.
And I don't like breaking up with someone for reasons as 'we can't be together'... Id rather hear 'i dont want to be with you or i dont love you'
So yeah. Thank you guys for all your support. Hope all your LDRs stay strong.
I will probably be visiting still because I love happy stories.
xox
We have decided to end it, because there seems to be no end to the distance at the moment and we are both young (im 20, he's 22), we still need to invest in ourselves and shape our personalities.
He cannot afford to move either to UK, nor USA (even though he said that if he manages to save pennies up, he will travel to live with me)... and I am still doing my Uni degree, and going to Houston for 2 years in September. So we have been in a LDR for 2 years already and it would only be half way through... which with only one visit a year and a horrible, horrible time difference, we figured we could not do it. I had major trust issues and insecurities, and he needs touch and 'being there'.
We will probably remain friends for a while too, because he was not only my SO, but also my best friend. And I was his.
I asked him to cuddle me to sleep for the last time, he said it wasn't the best idea in the current situation. Which is fair enough, and I do understand that now (after 2 hours).
And he also said that he doesn't believe in having just this ONE person in the world to be the perfect match, that he fell in love before... and that he had fun times.. and this is what he wants to remember from our relationship too. So that didn't make me feel special, but he apologised basically straight away.
The hardest thing to do after the talk? To walk out his door... I didn't want to do that, he didnt want to let me go. This was horrible. I hate the fact that he lost faith in LDRs ... that he didnt like the virtual thing.
And I don't like breaking up with someone for reasons as 'we can't be together'... Id rather hear 'i dont want to be with you or i dont love you'
So yeah. Thank you guys for all your support. Hope all your LDRs stay strong.
I will probably be visiting still because I love happy stories.
xox
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