Wow, so where do I even start. The past few weeks since Andrew has been home have honestly been the most miserable weeks of my life. I was upset that it seemed like he barely wanted to see me, and so I started telling him. Instead of him trying to make things better (we saw each other once a week in the past two weeks) he got defensive and would tell me that I was being crazy. From what I've told everyone else, I really don't think me asking to see my boyfriend more than once a week is too crazy. On Sunday I had had it, I got upset with him because he didn't want to see me, yet again, and yet again he told me that I was psycho, while I was crying, and hung up on me. Monday he told me he wanted a break. At first I was upset, actually, I was upset up until this evening when I went over to his house because I wanted to see him physically delete the videos that I had sent him while we were long distance. After having a conversation with him, where I finally realized that he was being a complete asshole, and had been for a while now, I realized on my way home that I'm better off without him. I'm actually already feeling so much better about myself.
I feel as though I lost a part of myself while being in this relationship. I used to be someone who made guys fight for me, and yet, I let him walk all over me because I loved him. I'm not saying that I still don't love him, because obviously, I can't fall out of love that easily, I gave 2 years of my life to him, and of course I won't forget that, but honestly, love is blind, and in this case, it was a bad blind. It was so blind that I was unable to actually see it. I wanted to believe everything was working out, and I made up excuses for him treating me the way he did, but all of a sudden, within the past 2 hours, it has all become unbelievably clear, I feel like I'm finally seeing the world in a good light.
As for long distance relationships, I do believe they work, I don't think that the issue here was the distance, or even overcoming it, obviously we made it through that, I think really the issue comes that I shouldn't have even let this relationship get that far. Would I do it again? Yeah, with the right person, but I don't know who that person is yet.
I feel as though I lost a part of myself while being in this relationship. I used to be someone who made guys fight for me, and yet, I let him walk all over me because I loved him. I'm not saying that I still don't love him, because obviously, I can't fall out of love that easily, I gave 2 years of my life to him, and of course I won't forget that, but honestly, love is blind, and in this case, it was a bad blind. It was so blind that I was unable to actually see it. I wanted to believe everything was working out, and I made up excuses for him treating me the way he did, but all of a sudden, within the past 2 hours, it has all become unbelievably clear, I feel like I'm finally seeing the world in a good light.
As for long distance relationships, I do believe they work, I don't think that the issue here was the distance, or even overcoming it, obviously we made it through that, I think really the issue comes that I shouldn't have even let this relationship get that far. Would I do it again? Yeah, with the right person, but I don't know who that person is yet.
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