So the SO's bestest friend is in the Army too. Only he's deployed. He came in for 2 weeks and I took him out [I was his DD, mostly trying to get him laid but didn't work out...lol] and well it was nice. We had fun and I'm just really glad I get along with the SO's friends. It was pretty important to me that we got along bc me bff's ex didn't like me and it made hanging out with her hard....(I chose not to go around often when he was there bc I knew he didn't like me and I wasn't crazy about how he treated her...and it really sucked!) But it was real cute too, he told me after the first time he met me he like [approved of] me and he told the SO he better hold on me I was a good one. 
He was surprised at how well I took care of not just Bryce, but his friends too [[obviously they're just finding the wrong girls bc duh of course if I'm already walking back into the house to get me a beer I'll get you one too....that's just common courtesy if you ask me]].....but that made me feel really good. I mean they always call each other 'brothers from another mother' so I've accepted that if I want to spend the rest of my life with Bryce I'll also basically be spending the rest of my life with his best friend lol. It just meant a lot to me that his friends "approve" of me.
but I digress....well he's back overseas, but not quite to where he's stationed yet. So he's just hanging out wherever it is that they have them right now. He's been online pretty regularly. We chatted a bit last night maybe. Just asked how everyone was, what the SO was up to, and I asked how he was. We talked longer tonight. Some how it came up "the military life sucked." And I said something about yea, but you do what ya gotta do, and I mentioned that I get moody when it starts getting to me, but the SO gets sort of distant and doesn't talk as much. And we talked about that a little bit. He was saying it's just how a lot of guys are. And it's best to just give him his space when he gets like that, that he'll call when he's ready to talk, that I know it's not like he'd go to bed without calling etc etc. It sort of made me cry, makes me tear up now....idk I mean I want the SO back, but this made me realize just how much I'm missing out on with both of them gone. I mean this is his best friend ever....since the 5th grade, basically inseparable. So as close as I am to Bryce and as much as I know about him....there's still so many little things to learn [especially since it is LDR and we're rarely actually together], but this guy.....he knows so much about him. And I just really wish I had them both here.
The one time I did see them together, they were just so cute. They get like all BFF and finish each others sentences. It's the cutest thing! But I obviously want the SO here, I love him with everything I have and more [im here bc of him, i was going no where but down before he came along and he's taught me so much about myself and helped me to learn to love myself], and I miss his touch, and just seeing him, just being with him....and there's all those little things I have no idea about bc there's no way to know about them unless you spend time with him. But then there's his best friend...he's been such a huge part of his life and knows him so well........we should have been having little convos like the ones we had tonight.....when the SO get's all weird and stuff I just get really confused and sort of worried and don't always know what to do. Well that's who I should go to, his bff...be like what is up with him, what do I do, I do this it doesn't work, I tried that it doesn't work either.
Idk a few weeks back was just absolutely horrible for missing the SO. I was a little stressed with school and couldn't cope with the distance as much. I was very moody and he got it all. I stayed upset with him over anything and it didn't matter what he did he couldn't win. But that's how I get when it gets to be too much.....I cope with it just fine normally, but when it becomes too overwhelming for my brain it responds with anger.....its like its easier to be mad at him than to miss him so much. But idk, I pushed past it. It just got a million times better in the middle of the week last week. I just felt like I was ready to cope with it, and to deal with the distance, and to just get through the next few months {hopefully see him in July). But this just made me miss him so much. I'm just so ready for him to be back. Just over 10 months....that's nothing....we've already done 15 months. It's so close, yet so far.....
Idk. I knew I was missing out on stuff not being the SO, but it's made us such a stronger couple and it's definitely forced us to develop excellent communication skills. But I didn't realize how much I was missing out on bc his best friend wasn't around.....but I am. He means so much to the SO and I know the SO means a whole to him [they're very protective of one another]....and he's been a part of the SO's life for about half of his life! He knows so much about him....and could let me in on stuff that Bryce might not normally share....know what I mean. I just had never thought about it............
We all know how much we're missing without the SO around, but did you ever think how much you're missing without his friends around?!
He was surprised at how well I took care of not just Bryce, but his friends too [[obviously they're just finding the wrong girls bc duh of course if I'm already walking back into the house to get me a beer I'll get you one too....that's just common courtesy if you ask me]].....but that made me feel really good. I mean they always call each other 'brothers from another mother' so I've accepted that if I want to spend the rest of my life with Bryce I'll also basically be spending the rest of my life with his best friend lol. It just meant a lot to me that his friends "approve" of me.but I digress....well he's back overseas, but not quite to where he's stationed yet. So he's just hanging out wherever it is that they have them right now. He's been online pretty regularly. We chatted a bit last night maybe. Just asked how everyone was, what the SO was up to, and I asked how he was. We talked longer tonight. Some how it came up "the military life sucked." And I said something about yea, but you do what ya gotta do, and I mentioned that I get moody when it starts getting to me, but the SO gets sort of distant and doesn't talk as much. And we talked about that a little bit. He was saying it's just how a lot of guys are. And it's best to just give him his space when he gets like that, that he'll call when he's ready to talk, that I know it's not like he'd go to bed without calling etc etc. It sort of made me cry, makes me tear up now....idk I mean I want the SO back, but this made me realize just how much I'm missing out on with both of them gone. I mean this is his best friend ever....since the 5th grade, basically inseparable. So as close as I am to Bryce and as much as I know about him....there's still so many little things to learn [especially since it is LDR and we're rarely actually together], but this guy.....he knows so much about him. And I just really wish I had them both here.
The one time I did see them together, they were just so cute. They get like all BFF and finish each others sentences. It's the cutest thing!
But I obviously want the SO here, I love him with everything I have and more [im here bc of him, i was going no where but down before he came along and he's taught me so much about myself and helped me to learn to love myself], and I miss his touch, and just seeing him, just being with him....and there's all those little things I have no idea about bc there's no way to know about them unless you spend time with him. But then there's his best friend...he's been such a huge part of his life and knows him so well........we should have been having little convos like the ones we had tonight.....when the SO get's all weird and stuff I just get really confused and sort of worried and don't always know what to do. Well that's who I should go to, his bff...be like what is up with him, what do I do, I do this it doesn't work, I tried that it doesn't work either.Idk a few weeks back was just absolutely horrible for missing the SO. I was a little stressed with school and couldn't cope with the distance as much. I was very moody and he got it all. I stayed upset with him over anything and it didn't matter what he did he couldn't win. But that's how I get when it gets to be too much.....I cope with it just fine normally, but when it becomes too overwhelming for my brain it responds with anger.....its like its easier to be mad at him than to miss him so much. But idk, I pushed past it. It just got a million times better in the middle of the week last week. I just felt like I was ready to cope with it, and to deal with the distance, and to just get through the next few months {hopefully see him in July). But this just made me miss him so much. I'm just so ready for him to be back. Just over 10 months....that's nothing....we've already done 15 months. It's so close, yet so far.....
Idk. I knew I was missing out on stuff not being the SO, but it's made us such a stronger couple and it's definitely forced us to develop excellent communication skills. But I didn't realize how much I was missing out on bc his best friend wasn't around.....but I am. He means so much to the SO and I know the SO means a whole to him [they're very protective of one another]....and he's been a part of the SO's life for about half of his life! He knows so much about him....and could let me in on stuff that Bryce might not normally share....know what I mean. I just had never thought about it............
We all know how much we're missing without the SO around, but did you ever think how much you're missing without his friends around?!
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