Well all i have to say is the last week has been high intense with all different types of emotions for me.
Before i left to come to visit my long distance partner of 3 years i was anxious and for the first time very nervous....
I have been with him for 4 days now in canada.
When i saw him my heart skipped a beat and i was extrememly excited and reasured i still had the same feelings.
when we hang out that night it was great and for the next two days pretty amazing and i was wondering what all my worries were about.
NOW i am realising i have a major insecurity and trust issue from how he had treated me for the last 3 months.
He has done some amazing and specail things since i have been here.... But today i have been overdrawn with emotion as he has gone off to work in the city for the day and night. I have yet to meet his friends. and he keeps trying to reasure me i will but i am staying at his parents place alone tonight and the missing is killing me. (i feel pathetic as i should be able to trust him, i should be able to be ok with everyday things like him working.) but right now i am down in the dumps wondering.....again (if uve seen my last posts ud understand)
he tells me he will try to come back tonight, but may have to stay in the city..... i dont understand why i couldnt go. so asked. (at the flat he stays at he sleeps on a blow up bed and said he has to organize somthing for us before i go in with him) its hard.... going from having him again to not having him around....
anyone been in a similar situation? any advice
Before i left to come to visit my long distance partner of 3 years i was anxious and for the first time very nervous....
I have been with him for 4 days now in canada.
When i saw him my heart skipped a beat and i was extrememly excited and reasured i still had the same feelings.
when we hang out that night it was great and for the next two days pretty amazing and i was wondering what all my worries were about.
NOW i am realising i have a major insecurity and trust issue from how he had treated me for the last 3 months.
He has done some amazing and specail things since i have been here.... But today i have been overdrawn with emotion as he has gone off to work in the city for the day and night. I have yet to meet his friends. and he keeps trying to reasure me i will but i am staying at his parents place alone tonight and the missing is killing me. (i feel pathetic as i should be able to trust him, i should be able to be ok with everyday things like him working.) but right now i am down in the dumps wondering.....again (if uve seen my last posts ud understand)
he tells me he will try to come back tonight, but may have to stay in the city..... i dont understand why i couldnt go. so asked. (at the flat he stays at he sleeps on a blow up bed and said he has to organize somthing for us before i go in with him) its hard.... going from having him again to not having him around....
anyone been in a similar situation? any advice
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