My boyfriend and I started off as a LDR. In 2014, I met him in LA. I am from Canada. He was living in Arizona at that time, and recently moved to Nevada because of work. We dated long distance for about a year the first time around and broke up because I found out he had been unfaithful to me. I was so in love with him, but I could no longer trust him and the distance did not make it any easier. I never truly got over him but moved on because there was no way I knew it would work out.
Back in April this year, he contacted me again and told me he was so sorry and wanted my forgiveness. He told me he wasn't over me. He wanted to give it another try. I was very hesitant but he seemed genuine so I said okay. To be honest, I was still in love with him. He has been the one who has been paying for all the flights for the past 6 months as I am still a student.
Here is what I am confused about.. I understand his job is demanding, but he takes his irritability and impatience out on me. He tells me to not take it personally but it hurts. When we are happy, things are amazing. But when something unhappy comes up, we can barely talk to each other. And I get insecure about him being unfaithful again. He is an introvert so there are many times I do not know what he is thinking. I tried to end it with him multiple times but he thinks I am giving up. I have brought it up a few times I would like to close the distance, and I am willing to move to the US after I am done my program in a year. He seems reluctant to talk about this too. I don't know what he wants and now I am just frustrated. I love him but I don't know where all of this is going.. I don't want to feel like I'm giving up but nothing is clear. I don't like the uncertainty. I am the type who likes to have a vision, and strive for that vision. He, on the other hand, thinks we can just see each other once a month. No talks about the future.
What does all of this mean? I would like to get some different perspectives.. maybe I am not seeing something..
Thank you very much in advance.
Back in April this year, he contacted me again and told me he was so sorry and wanted my forgiveness. He told me he wasn't over me. He wanted to give it another try. I was very hesitant but he seemed genuine so I said okay. To be honest, I was still in love with him. He has been the one who has been paying for all the flights for the past 6 months as I am still a student.
Here is what I am confused about.. I understand his job is demanding, but he takes his irritability and impatience out on me. He tells me to not take it personally but it hurts. When we are happy, things are amazing. But when something unhappy comes up, we can barely talk to each other. And I get insecure about him being unfaithful again. He is an introvert so there are many times I do not know what he is thinking. I tried to end it with him multiple times but he thinks I am giving up. I have brought it up a few times I would like to close the distance, and I am willing to move to the US after I am done my program in a year. He seems reluctant to talk about this too. I don't know what he wants and now I am just frustrated. I love him but I don't know where all of this is going.. I don't want to feel like I'm giving up but nothing is clear. I don't like the uncertainty. I am the type who likes to have a vision, and strive for that vision. He, on the other hand, thinks we can just see each other once a month. No talks about the future.
What does all of this mean? I would like to get some different perspectives.. maybe I am not seeing something..
Thank you very much in advance.
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