Hello everyone! I haven't posted since an intro thread I did, but wanted to share what I am going through in my LDR. For starters, I really do love my partner. They have been super supportive to me, despite my issues with depression and anxiety. We communicate regularly through text, occasional phone calls before bed, and mostly skype. We've been in a relationship for 4 years now, and my anxiety about our relationship is worsening. The number one issue is the lack of an end date. Everything is really up in the air, and there's no clear direction yet. I was also hit hard because I was hoping to see him this summer, but he is going to Finland with his brother to see family and inquire about graduate schools there. Now, I really do hope he gets into school there, and I hope something can happen, but I still really miss him, and haven't seen him since January.
Altogether in 4 years, I've seen him 4 times. Right now, I'm struggling with depression and anxiety, (have been my whole life) and trying to work on a thesis so I can finally finish grad school. I'm hoping to be done in summer of 2018, but I dread graduating and still not being able to be with my partner. It would be easier if I could fly to him sometimes, but he works a lot and lives with his dad, who is not the most supportive, and is an angry drunk at times. So everything is dependent on him seeing me. Not only that but when he isn't working, he also deals with depression and anxiety so he oversleeps, which lessens our time together further due to time differences. I'm in Illinois, he is in Northern California, so I'm two hours ahead. He always says he is just taking a nap, but will then oversleep. Does anyone have a similar situation of dealing with depression and anxiety in an ldr? It's just stressful because my partner is my major source of support. I live alone, and don't have a ton of friends. I recently just hung out with a friend yesterday which really brightened my mood, but I'm so tired of going to bed alone and only being able to see my partner on skype occasionally for an hour or two at most. Again, I really do love my partner, just venting, and wish I knew of a way to make an end date appear.
Altogether in 4 years, I've seen him 4 times. Right now, I'm struggling with depression and anxiety, (have been my whole life) and trying to work on a thesis so I can finally finish grad school. I'm hoping to be done in summer of 2018, but I dread graduating and still not being able to be with my partner. It would be easier if I could fly to him sometimes, but he works a lot and lives with his dad, who is not the most supportive, and is an angry drunk at times. So everything is dependent on him seeing me. Not only that but when he isn't working, he also deals with depression and anxiety so he oversleeps, which lessens our time together further due to time differences. I'm in Illinois, he is in Northern California, so I'm two hours ahead. He always says he is just taking a nap, but will then oversleep. Does anyone have a similar situation of dealing with depression and anxiety in an ldr? It's just stressful because my partner is my major source of support. I live alone, and don't have a ton of friends. I recently just hung out with a friend yesterday which really brightened my mood, but I'm so tired of going to bed alone and only being able to see my partner on skype occasionally for an hour or two at most. Again, I really do love my partner, just venting, and wish I knew of a way to make an end date appear.
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