Hiya...
haven't been here for a few weeks.
I felt this wasn't my place anymore since my SO and I broke up.
but now a few weeks have passed and the horrible feelings that come with a break up are getting worse.
can't talk to people in my circle.... cause they haven't been in an LDR themselves and they do not know how it feels to deal with a heartache caused by someone who has never been around in my real life.
I don't know where I belong now.... I don't feel single.... still feel like being part of a couple, with my SO living miles and miles away...
but yet I am single.
my friends don't know him, never seen me with him.... so they don't know how to react.
they cannot understand why I feel devastated inside.... they keep saying I will be fine after some time... and of course I will.... but for some odd reason, they don't see me as a person who just came out of a relationship..... I 'feel' single to them... and always have been.... so they just don't understand .
I know, time will heal that wound....
but still..... I can't get over the loss. it's for the better that we split up, so no regrets here, but odd thing is.... it feels like somebody or something died and it's hard to deal with that. I am stuck.... can't cut myself loose from him. we don't talk, we don't send messages or stuff.... it's gone and will never come back, so I have no false hopes.... it's just that it feels like he died.... and I mourn the fact that we can never talk again. I miss the good things we shared... and I so want THAT back..
it's hard to explain....
have you ever been in the same place and how did you deal with it?
haven't been here for a few weeks.
I felt this wasn't my place anymore since my SO and I broke up.
but now a few weeks have passed and the horrible feelings that come with a break up are getting worse.
can't talk to people in my circle.... cause they haven't been in an LDR themselves and they do not know how it feels to deal with a heartache caused by someone who has never been around in my real life.
I don't know where I belong now.... I don't feel single.... still feel like being part of a couple, with my SO living miles and miles away...
but yet I am single.
my friends don't know him, never seen me with him.... so they don't know how to react.
they cannot understand why I feel devastated inside.... they keep saying I will be fine after some time... and of course I will.... but for some odd reason, they don't see me as a person who just came out of a relationship..... I 'feel' single to them... and always have been.... so they just don't understand .
I know, time will heal that wound....
but still..... I can't get over the loss. it's for the better that we split up, so no regrets here, but odd thing is.... it feels like somebody or something died and it's hard to deal with that. I am stuck.... can't cut myself loose from him. we don't talk, we don't send messages or stuff.... it's gone and will never come back, so I have no false hopes.... it's just that it feels like he died.... and I mourn the fact that we can never talk again. I miss the good things we shared... and I so want THAT back..
it's hard to explain....
have you ever been in the same place and how did you deal with it?
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