In a worst way possible... I know many of you here were warning me a long time and maybe I saw the light in the end of this tunnel finally now. He broke up with me because of his future doubts about his parents allowing him to stay with me, so we would meet more, but that wasnt the final reason. We talked about past relationship and I just told him too much, I wanted to be honest and I thought past is past... WRONG! he backfired me for a thing from the past. Some xxx photos I exchanged with my ex years ago, saying he thought I was only his woman that he can never forget and look me the same way again. But the thng is he slept with women in past relationships and I didn't say I can't forgive him that. I know it's a cultural thing, but still. And I gave him my virginity, I was his in this future and reality. He said it doesnt matter if it's virtual or real, that it's same to him. He broke up with one of his exes years before because of the same reason, she lied she was a virgin and she had sex. But I haven't been with anyone, just this little mistake and it destroyed all... I just can't believe it. Only thing I'm guessing is he never really loved me the way I loved him...if he ever did.
I tried to fix it and I was convincing him for days, but he went his way, finally he blocked me everywhere possible and choose to ignore all my calls/texts about how broken I felt that it was messing with my sleep, eating...it's like once he cared now there's nothing, how can someone just stop caring like that, does he really hate me so much for it?
I think the worst way to break up is do the blocking instead of talk it and try to end it in a way to just not block...so you have some contact open if you want to reestablish the friend connection later... and I dont know what to do with his gifts, I have a giant toy of him reminding me and making me sad daily, and I said I would send it back, but its expensive...and I though to contact him in 3 weeks when he has a birthday, but if he doesnt care at all now and ignores me, its pointless, right?
And even worse is that I'm having nightmares now, I'm seeing him in my dreams, I can't sleep okay, I'm waking up in tears and crying. I'ts only 4 days, but I forgot how to live my own life. It all adds that I have no activities, no job, no friends near, so I'm just at home left with my thoughts, trying to sleep most of these days. I think it would be much easier for me if he would still talk to me...not block me. I feel like nothing now. I don't really know why I created this post, I just had to vent somewhere.
Did anyone ever go through such a bad breakup? Does it always turn this way that they stop caring like there was never anything? it's just beyond my understanding how can it be while I'm suffering to bits, he just ignores and lives okay...How could he just forget everything we had, our happy times like they never happened...
I know I've annoyed the crap out of him, because I just couldnt stop myself from writing when he said its over, forget me. I know it's what got me blocked and later I sent him some pretty harsh smses when he blocked me everywhere and called him numerous times, I just lost my nerves.
But still...I could not block him like he did to me, even when I was hurt to bits I tried to write reasonably and I think blocking is just a childish way of not being able to face the reality... I don't support it.
The strange thing though is even if he said he deleted everything of me that he didn't delete my posts on his facebook, nor my brother, even if they never talked much. Why wouldnt he do that? If it's over you delete all posts and even close family, no? My brother said maybe he's planning to unblock later, but I dont believe that, I think I just have a wishful thnking
And I've had breakups before...ldr's only...but shorter, a few months and we never met, and I was hurt a lot too when it ended, but not in this amount, ever. So basically he was my first real boyfriend that I also met...that's why it hurts even more.
I tried to fix it and I was convincing him for days, but he went his way, finally he blocked me everywhere possible and choose to ignore all my calls/texts about how broken I felt that it was messing with my sleep, eating...it's like once he cared now there's nothing, how can someone just stop caring like that, does he really hate me so much for it?
I think the worst way to break up is do the blocking instead of talk it and try to end it in a way to just not block...so you have some contact open if you want to reestablish the friend connection later... and I dont know what to do with his gifts, I have a giant toy of him reminding me and making me sad daily, and I said I would send it back, but its expensive...and I though to contact him in 3 weeks when he has a birthday, but if he doesnt care at all now and ignores me, its pointless, right?
And even worse is that I'm having nightmares now, I'm seeing him in my dreams, I can't sleep okay, I'm waking up in tears and crying. I'ts only 4 days, but I forgot how to live my own life. It all adds that I have no activities, no job, no friends near, so I'm just at home left with my thoughts, trying to sleep most of these days. I think it would be much easier for me if he would still talk to me...not block me. I feel like nothing now. I don't really know why I created this post, I just had to vent somewhere.
Did anyone ever go through such a bad breakup? Does it always turn this way that they stop caring like there was never anything? it's just beyond my understanding how can it be while I'm suffering to bits, he just ignores and lives okay...How could he just forget everything we had, our happy times like they never happened...
I know I've annoyed the crap out of him, because I just couldnt stop myself from writing when he said its over, forget me. I know it's what got me blocked and later I sent him some pretty harsh smses when he blocked me everywhere and called him numerous times, I just lost my nerves.
But still...I could not block him like he did to me, even when I was hurt to bits I tried to write reasonably and I think blocking is just a childish way of not being able to face the reality... I don't support it.
The strange thing though is even if he said he deleted everything of me that he didn't delete my posts on his facebook, nor my brother, even if they never talked much. Why wouldnt he do that? If it's over you delete all posts and even close family, no? My brother said maybe he's planning to unblock later, but I dont believe that, I think I just have a wishful thnking
And I've had breakups before...ldr's only...but shorter, a few months and we never met, and I was hurt a lot too when it ended, but not in this amount, ever. So basically he was my first real boyfriend that I also met...that's why it hurts even more.
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