About a month ago my SO and I broke up. Since then, we've maintained a "friendship", in which we text each other maybe once a day or a few times a week just to check in on one another. Initially, a whole load of truths hit the fan and I was super upset with him, but after a while I realized that the disintegration of our relationship was mostly my fault. I was such a bitch to him. Literally, every time I think of how awful I was to him, it makes me wanna barf. But anyhow, now that I know what I did wrong, and I know that I never want to be that way to him, and I know that I really do, in fact, love him, I don't know how to get him back.
Before we broke up, we had great plans for our lives. After I graduated from uni we would get ESL jobs together somewhere, anywhere. And from there on, we would travel the world and simply be a teaching couple. There were a bunch of other plans aside from the former. Now, he says that he still cares about me, but for the time being, too much damage has been done and we can't get back together right away. He's due to come back form Indonesia at the end of August, and he said that maybe things could work out then, if we end up in the same area. However, the uncertainty kills me. I want him to know how sorry I am for all the pain I caused. I want him to know that I miss him more than ever. To know that I love him and cherish him. To know that everything I think, say and do, is with him in mind.
Sure, it took him nearly 10,000 miles and 5 months of distance for him to figure out his priorities. And now it's taken me losing him to figure out mine. I guess what I'm saying is that spring break is coming up soon, and I just checked out the roundtrip airfares to Indonesia and they were surprisingly affordable. Would be it totally unreasonable to fly over there, unannounced, and profess my love for him, as a grand romantic gesture? Or should I just wait it out and see what happens?
I'm so scared of losing him for good. Without him, life is only bearable. With him, life is sunny side up
Before we broke up, we had great plans for our lives. After I graduated from uni we would get ESL jobs together somewhere, anywhere. And from there on, we would travel the world and simply be a teaching couple. There were a bunch of other plans aside from the former. Now, he says that he still cares about me, but for the time being, too much damage has been done and we can't get back together right away. He's due to come back form Indonesia at the end of August, and he said that maybe things could work out then, if we end up in the same area. However, the uncertainty kills me. I want him to know how sorry I am for all the pain I caused. I want him to know that I miss him more than ever. To know that I love him and cherish him. To know that everything I think, say and do, is with him in mind.
Sure, it took him nearly 10,000 miles and 5 months of distance for him to figure out his priorities. And now it's taken me losing him to figure out mine. I guess what I'm saying is that spring break is coming up soon, and I just checked out the roundtrip airfares to Indonesia and they were surprisingly affordable. Would be it totally unreasonable to fly over there, unannounced, and profess my love for him, as a grand romantic gesture? Or should I just wait it out and see what happens?
I'm so scared of losing him for good. Without him, life is only bearable. With him, life is sunny side up
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