Hi
I live in Australia and last year in November I met a girl From Germany on a forum of a website she approached me and we ended up moving the chat to kik
since this day we have never missed a day talking to each other it now stands at 101 days as of today
During this time I have fallen madly in love with this girl and the plan is for her to come here for a month in June/July and then in December I will go there and spend Christmas and New Years eve with her
Everything has been going great she has been so supportive of helping me turn my life around with confidence and improving my health and other aspects
However as someone with low self esteem I am aware that this girl is way out of my league there is also the issue of never having talked on the phone or skype only through Kik or sometimes facebook
So I haven't even heard her voice before now this is something i would like but there is a few issues i won't go into on this post
the reason for posting this is I am freaking out a little and want to seek some advice before i say something and overreact and screw it up
Due to my self esteem whilst improving thanks to her is also low enough that I cannot fully believe she is interested in only just me and being so far apart this is hard to see
So on the website which we met on i did something stupid and quite frankly underhanded and partly ashamed of it
I created fake profile on the site and then contacted her to gauge what she would say I pretended to be a guy similar to myself and I casually asked her if she would like to meet up for lunch as I will be in Germany in the next week
now at first she said something which was both good and concerning instead of flat out pointing out she has a boyfriend she said it is perhaps too soon to meet so Okay maybe she thought as just meeting as a friend
so i upped the ante a little and asked if she was single as she seems like someone I (the fake profile guy) would possibly be interested in romantically
now she finally replied after a tense 24 hours and I got the email back I was hoping to be a certain way in stating No she is not single she has a boyfriend (meaning me)
however she said and this is direct copy and paste from the message
this i was stunned when i read this now this is a girl who we have talked about our future together and has said I am the only one for her
so as casually as I could when talking on kik i made up a story about a girl contacting me and saying that she asked me if i was single and i said no i have a girlfriend which is the truth mostly because I have been asked this by girls since we have been together and i have said that I am not single
so she comes back with two lies ones she doesn't know that I know are lies
Firstly she says that no guys have contacted her (which is false the fake profile has made contact 24 hours prior)
secondly she has said "There is no doubt you are my boyfriend"
thirdly she said when i pushed a little more and this is the biggest kick to the nuts lie
"I always say I have a Boyfriend"
so right now I am both confused and mad not just at her but at myself for stepping into territory i did not want to know about but my damn curiousity got the best of me
I am also upset at her for these lies and to me telling me one thing then telling this guy another even though it is a fake profile this is probably common with real guys who message that she is letting them know she is single and to me this is saying that she doesn't value the supposed relationship i thought we have
I am afraid if i call her out on this that this will ruin the relationship which would break my heart as i have never felt like this for any other girl before and to me she is perfect in every other way but this has me now thinking what else is she up to if she can just say this to a total stranger then what about someone she is in contact with in the physical sense
I am being possibly paranoid and irrational but also i think some of this has some validity remember this is a girl i am changing things in my life and as of this moment I am scraping together every cent i can going with things i normally enjoy to make sure i have enough money to visit her because she means more to me than these other things and i am far from a wealthy person so it is not easy
anyways anyone have any advice or similar experience please share it will ease my mind
I live in Australia and last year in November I met a girl From Germany on a forum of a website she approached me and we ended up moving the chat to kik
since this day we have never missed a day talking to each other it now stands at 101 days as of today
During this time I have fallen madly in love with this girl and the plan is for her to come here for a month in June/July and then in December I will go there and spend Christmas and New Years eve with her
Everything has been going great she has been so supportive of helping me turn my life around with confidence and improving my health and other aspects
However as someone with low self esteem I am aware that this girl is way out of my league there is also the issue of never having talked on the phone or skype only through Kik or sometimes facebook
So I haven't even heard her voice before now this is something i would like but there is a few issues i won't go into on this post
the reason for posting this is I am freaking out a little and want to seek some advice before i say something and overreact and screw it up
Due to my self esteem whilst improving thanks to her is also low enough that I cannot fully believe she is interested in only just me and being so far apart this is hard to see
So on the website which we met on i did something stupid and quite frankly underhanded and partly ashamed of it
I created fake profile on the site and then contacted her to gauge what she would say I pretended to be a guy similar to myself and I casually asked her if she would like to meet up for lunch as I will be in Germany in the next week
now at first she said something which was both good and concerning instead of flat out pointing out she has a boyfriend she said it is perhaps too soon to meet so Okay maybe she thought as just meeting as a friend
so i upped the ante a little and asked if she was single as she seems like someone I (the fake profile guy) would possibly be interested in romantically
now she finally replied after a tense 24 hours and I got the email back I was hoping to be a certain way in stating No she is not single she has a boyfriend (meaning me)
however she said and this is direct copy and paste from the message
I´m single, yes.
I think we start slow and see what happen!
I think we start slow and see what happen!
so as casually as I could when talking on kik i made up a story about a girl contacting me and saying that she asked me if i was single and i said no i have a girlfriend which is the truth mostly because I have been asked this by girls since we have been together and i have said that I am not single
so she comes back with two lies ones she doesn't know that I know are lies
Firstly she says that no guys have contacted her (which is false the fake profile has made contact 24 hours prior)
secondly she has said "There is no doubt you are my boyfriend"
thirdly she said when i pushed a little more and this is the biggest kick to the nuts lie
"I always say I have a Boyfriend"
so right now I am both confused and mad not just at her but at myself for stepping into territory i did not want to know about but my damn curiousity got the best of me
I am also upset at her for these lies and to me telling me one thing then telling this guy another even though it is a fake profile this is probably common with real guys who message that she is letting them know she is single and to me this is saying that she doesn't value the supposed relationship i thought we have
I am afraid if i call her out on this that this will ruin the relationship which would break my heart as i have never felt like this for any other girl before and to me she is perfect in every other way but this has me now thinking what else is she up to if she can just say this to a total stranger then what about someone she is in contact with in the physical sense
I am being possibly paranoid and irrational but also i think some of this has some validity remember this is a girl i am changing things in my life and as of this moment I am scraping together every cent i can going with things i normally enjoy to make sure i have enough money to visit her because she means more to me than these other things and i am far from a wealthy person so it is not easy
anyways anyone have any advice or similar experience please share it will ease my mind
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