I just want to start off by saying that I am so glad I found this place. I have only peeked into a few threads but everyone seems so supportive here! I think I will value the use of this site greatly. Also I hope this is the right forum for this topic.
Well anyways, so I have been in this LDR for just a little over a month now. It has actually been really good up to now. I think I will take to calling it the "falling madly in love" era of this LDR where it has just been so wonderful getting to know my SO better and talking to each other and all the good stuff like that. I am absolutely crazy for my SO I never thought I could find a person like her in my life and it is so good! Unfortunately while falling in love and getting to know her had been going on I had completely forgot to grasp the severity of the situation I was putting myself into. And so, as I said before, here I am a month later and it has finally occurred to me that we are nearly 9000 miles apart from each other.
Do not get me wrong, I care for my SO very much and none of my feelings have changed but, it is so much distance. I can only liken what I feel to maybe punching on a punching bag for 15 minutes to turn around and find out your first opponent is Mike Tyson or something. I guess now I am starting to think about what all it will take and what some of the challenges are going to be and even though I do not what to admit this, I am very scared. I have no idea how to make something like this work I don't even know where to start. I mean obviously I guess the first step is that first meeting and we have already talked about it a few times but it would take so much for me to go there to see her. I have try to do some estimates in my head from prices of things I've seen online and it seems like it would take me forever to be able to go. I am scared also I will take too long or what I don't know.
What I do know is that anyone who enters and LDR and especially that closes the distance are straight up warriors. They now hold my utmost respect and deserve, greatly, the happiness they find. I feel like I am taking on the hardest thing in the world right now and I've only just stuck my toes in the water.
This is getting quite long now. I really don't know what I am expecting to hear back from all this. I know this will all get much harder. But I guess maybe the harder something is, the better the reward and the more its worth doing? I have already seen a handful of success stories and I know I want that but I don't know I am just kind of scared right now and the over abundance of all other feelings I have now are not helping this anxiety much. If you read all this thank you.
Well anyways, so I have been in this LDR for just a little over a month now. It has actually been really good up to now. I think I will take to calling it the "falling madly in love" era of this LDR where it has just been so wonderful getting to know my SO better and talking to each other and all the good stuff like that. I am absolutely crazy for my SO I never thought I could find a person like her in my life and it is so good! Unfortunately while falling in love and getting to know her had been going on I had completely forgot to grasp the severity of the situation I was putting myself into. And so, as I said before, here I am a month later and it has finally occurred to me that we are nearly 9000 miles apart from each other.
Do not get me wrong, I care for my SO very much and none of my feelings have changed but, it is so much distance. I can only liken what I feel to maybe punching on a punching bag for 15 minutes to turn around and find out your first opponent is Mike Tyson or something. I guess now I am starting to think about what all it will take and what some of the challenges are going to be and even though I do not what to admit this, I am very scared. I have no idea how to make something like this work I don't even know where to start. I mean obviously I guess the first step is that first meeting and we have already talked about it a few times but it would take so much for me to go there to see her. I have try to do some estimates in my head from prices of things I've seen online and it seems like it would take me forever to be able to go. I am scared also I will take too long or what I don't know.
What I do know is that anyone who enters and LDR and especially that closes the distance are straight up warriors. They now hold my utmost respect and deserve, greatly, the happiness they find. I feel like I am taking on the hardest thing in the world right now and I've only just stuck my toes in the water.
This is getting quite long now. I really don't know what I am expecting to hear back from all this. I know this will all get much harder. But I guess maybe the harder something is, the better the reward and the more its worth doing? I have already seen a handful of success stories and I know I want that but I don't know I am just kind of scared right now and the over abundance of all other feelings I have now are not helping this anxiety much. If you read all this thank you.
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