it's been 3 months after he said he wanted to break up with me,i'm still mourning and struggling.
i've known him for ages,met him on irc in 2004 for the first time and we got close after some months then i finally met him in person in 2009 and 2010 (we travelled together),then he changed job in 2011 and so did i,he couldn't meet before i joined my new company at that time.
then finally i decided to dump my job cause it made me exhausted for years and asked him to spend holiday again (been dying to spend time with him really),was talking about me visiting him but then again my sister suggested me to ask him come to visit me instead so she could meet him as well to make sure he's a good guy before he took me to his country.i didn't mind both,all i wanted just to spend time with him but he told me he didn't mind if he visited me.i was so excited about it
then after some weeks of planning. we had a big fight ,he decided to take a break and saying he didn't really look forward to meet up and it broke my heart into pieces ,i have taken pic for visa requirement and asked travel agent about applying uk visa.
he didn't asked me to give him space,i tried but ended up with looking for him again,he didn't like it.but then when i finally stopped it,he looked for me.but then he decided to break up with me after some weeks,he said he was unhappy and it didn't work and etc etc etc
the sad thing is a girl came to his life right after we broke up.she's his coworker.they spent time a lot,after office hour and during weekend.i was sad and jealous every time he said he would spend time with that girl.he said nothing happened between them.but they spent time together a lot,well with others too (that's what he said),spending time at her place playing game or go out for a drink together.
i know we have broken up but i do still hope we can get back together again.somehow i think he still loves me and wants me,i told him i still love him and nothing changed until now.i asked him if he still loved me well he did say yes but that's few months ago,he got annoyed when i tend to ask that question again.
i just wanted to make sure he does still love me so i didn't give myself a false hope
last night i asked him about him playing game at her place on saturday and he said yes and asking about sunday and he told me that girl wanted to do something to spend time together.i asked if she wanted to spend time with him only or with others too he said no idea and i got all upset cause she kept being around in his life.he said nothing happened and he has said it over and over again.but i feel insecure and so afraid that they would fell each other cause they spent time together a lot.he got annoyed at me for asking that a lot.he said he has no interest in anyone and she won't think him more than a friend.
i did try to not contact him but turned out he would contact me if i tried to not talk to him,and i was so happy everytime he messaged me,i know it's not good for me but i love him so much
what should i do? a good friend of mine asked me to forget him and move on but it's really hard for me to do it should i forget him?
is that girl really just friend or she might like him ?
i've known him for ages,met him on irc in 2004 for the first time and we got close after some months then i finally met him in person in 2009 and 2010 (we travelled together),then he changed job in 2011 and so did i,he couldn't meet before i joined my new company at that time.
then finally i decided to dump my job cause it made me exhausted for years and asked him to spend holiday again (been dying to spend time with him really),was talking about me visiting him but then again my sister suggested me to ask him come to visit me instead so she could meet him as well to make sure he's a good guy before he took me to his country.i didn't mind both,all i wanted just to spend time with him but he told me he didn't mind if he visited me.i was so excited about it
then after some weeks of planning. we had a big fight ,he decided to take a break and saying he didn't really look forward to meet up and it broke my heart into pieces ,i have taken pic for visa requirement and asked travel agent about applying uk visa.
he didn't asked me to give him space,i tried but ended up with looking for him again,he didn't like it.but then when i finally stopped it,he looked for me.but then he decided to break up with me after some weeks,he said he was unhappy and it didn't work and etc etc etc
the sad thing is a girl came to his life right after we broke up.she's his coworker.they spent time a lot,after office hour and during weekend.i was sad and jealous every time he said he would spend time with that girl.he said nothing happened between them.but they spent time together a lot,well with others too (that's what he said),spending time at her place playing game or go out for a drink together.
i know we have broken up but i do still hope we can get back together again.somehow i think he still loves me and wants me,i told him i still love him and nothing changed until now.i asked him if he still loved me well he did say yes but that's few months ago,he got annoyed when i tend to ask that question again.
i just wanted to make sure he does still love me so i didn't give myself a false hope
last night i asked him about him playing game at her place on saturday and he said yes and asking about sunday and he told me that girl wanted to do something to spend time together.i asked if she wanted to spend time with him only or with others too he said no idea and i got all upset cause she kept being around in his life.he said nothing happened and he has said it over and over again.but i feel insecure and so afraid that they would fell each other cause they spent time together a lot.he got annoyed at me for asking that a lot.he said he has no interest in anyone and she won't think him more than a friend.
i did try to not contact him but turned out he would contact me if i tried to not talk to him,and i was so happy everytime he messaged me,i know it's not good for me but i love him so much
what should i do? a good friend of mine asked me to forget him and move on but it's really hard for me to do it should i forget him?
is that girl really just friend or she might like him ?
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