Hello, my name is Dee. I have recently joined this site in hopes of meeting people who understand what I'm going through. Would love to just talk to someone who knows what It's like to be in a ldr aside from my SO.
-Short bio of Myself and my SO: I'm 24 from Chicago he 24 & is from Scotland We met via a game back in September of 2013, got into a relationship in December that same year. We talked on the phone,messaged each other and skyped constantly for all of 2014/2015. On October 20th he flew over to Chicago so we could finally meet in person! He stayed here from Oct 20th to January 13th.
So yes, he just left During his stay we connected much more deeply, it was the most amazing time of our lives.. I can honestly say we fell so much more in love. To say the least we are crazy about each other. When the time came to say bye at the airport I was an utter and complete mess. He cried all the way to the security check point as well. I stayed there until I couldn't see him anymore. It's now been two days since then and I still feel so empty and heartbroken. I've cried every single day especially at night, he left a few sweaters and shoes behind and I can't even look at them without crying. My home & especially my room feels so empty and lonely without him. I haven't slept in my bed or been in my room much because of this. I know this is all so recent and it takes time. But my heart and mind are just not having it, I feel horrible, I have never felt this pain in my life. I'm at a loss on how to cope, it's like he took my happiness with him.
His next visit will likely be in Late July. I know I should be happy and looking forward to this..But I can't seem to cheer up, I think I'm going through major depression & I can't control it. I've talked to him about it and he's hurting too, it saddens him to see me crying and hurt. And there's only so much cheering me up he can do while he's over there. I feel so bad because he is being the positive one and he's so excited for his next visit. Don't get me wrong I am happy that I'll see him again, my heart just seems to be hurting way too much, I'm missing him beyond belief. I tend to over think things and worry about him not being able to get through again in July since he traveled under the Vwp(does anyone have input on this?). So thinking of that saddens me even more, the idea of not seeing him then is maybe what's stopping me from being ok?
I just don't know...Has anyone ever felt like this? Been through this? It seems not even distractions help. Every time I talk to family or friends I get the whole "it'll get better" or "you'll be ok" line which makes me not want to talk to them about it. They just don't get what I'm feeling or going through so here I am, seeking any advice or info from others in the ldr community. TIA
-Short bio of Myself and my SO: I'm 24 from Chicago he 24 & is from Scotland We met via a game back in September of 2013, got into a relationship in December that same year. We talked on the phone,messaged each other and skyped constantly for all of 2014/2015. On October 20th he flew over to Chicago so we could finally meet in person! He stayed here from Oct 20th to January 13th.
So yes, he just left During his stay we connected much more deeply, it was the most amazing time of our lives.. I can honestly say we fell so much more in love. To say the least we are crazy about each other. When the time came to say bye at the airport I was an utter and complete mess. He cried all the way to the security check point as well. I stayed there until I couldn't see him anymore. It's now been two days since then and I still feel so empty and heartbroken. I've cried every single day especially at night, he left a few sweaters and shoes behind and I can't even look at them without crying. My home & especially my room feels so empty and lonely without him. I haven't slept in my bed or been in my room much because of this. I know this is all so recent and it takes time. But my heart and mind are just not having it, I feel horrible, I have never felt this pain in my life. I'm at a loss on how to cope, it's like he took my happiness with him.
His next visit will likely be in Late July. I know I should be happy and looking forward to this..But I can't seem to cheer up, I think I'm going through major depression & I can't control it. I've talked to him about it and he's hurting too, it saddens him to see me crying and hurt. And there's only so much cheering me up he can do while he's over there. I feel so bad because he is being the positive one and he's so excited for his next visit. Don't get me wrong I am happy that I'll see him again, my heart just seems to be hurting way too much, I'm missing him beyond belief. I tend to over think things and worry about him not being able to get through again in July since he traveled under the Vwp(does anyone have input on this?). So thinking of that saddens me even more, the idea of not seeing him then is maybe what's stopping me from being ok?
I just don't know...Has anyone ever felt like this? Been through this? It seems not even distractions help. Every time I talk to family or friends I get the whole "it'll get better" or "you'll be ok" line which makes me not want to talk to them about it. They just don't get what I'm feeling or going through so here I am, seeking any advice or info from others in the ldr community. TIA
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