So me and the SO had a really good chat 2 nights ago and she said there might be a job with her working overseas, and now I wish I could just go out and work with her. We chatted by text yesterday and she asked how my day was and stuff and I told her that I want to do is go out on season with her. She now says she may of being a bit hasty and i've replied saying if you say something like that it just really makes me want to do it with you, but she hasn't replied and now I'm left feeling like utter shit. I left it and will speak to her today and see how I feel. That said why would she say something like that to me if she didn't mean it, and why change her mind so quickly? I'm just a mess of emotions at the moment and any help would be so greatly appreciated we've only been apart for a week but I can't help but feel that I'll drive her away. I also got quite drunk last night and did something largely regrettable, she left her facebook logged on on my laptop and I looked at her messages I found a chat that went something like this:
Guy: Hope you're alright
SO: yerr fine
Guy: Can i come see you?
SO: not at the moment
Guy: Come to my room if you want?
Guy: (next day) Speak to you today? I'm really confused?
This has sent me crazy. I'm so disappointed in myself for looking but I'm also disappointed to read messages like this. I don't even begin to know how to talk to her about this i'm feeling that even though it's gone just a week this relationship isn't going to last. I love her to bits and we've had a few trust issues before but nothing major and she'd come talk it out with me everytime but at the moment I can't help but feel unmissed, unwanted and unloved.
Guy: Hope you're alright
SO: yerr fine
Guy: Can i come see you?
SO: not at the moment
Guy: Come to my room if you want?
Guy: (next day) Speak to you today? I'm really confused?
This has sent me crazy. I'm so disappointed in myself for looking but I'm also disappointed to read messages like this. I don't even begin to know how to talk to her about this i'm feeling that even though it's gone just a week this relationship isn't going to last. I love her to bits and we've had a few trust issues before but nothing major and she'd come talk it out with me everytime but at the moment I can't help but feel unmissed, unwanted and unloved.
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