Hello hello,
It's been a while. I doubt any one of you remember me, but I just wanted to post here for some reason.
We're still madly in love, we are still 15 and 18, and my mother is still strongly against us.
Nothing has really changed, except I've experienced different kinds of pain from being separated from him. I had tried to embrace myself but it was still horrible to experience it.
Not being able to see into his eyes, not being able to feel his hands that are cold but warm after holding mine, not being able to just be next to him...
it all hurts. As cliche as I sound, it hurts so much. I've spent too many nights crying, I've spent too many days wishing I could feel his hugs for just one second...
It's gotten a bit better since the beginning of our LDR since I guess I'm more used to it, but it still hurts.
it feels so strange that he can't be next to me anymore.
And I feel no one truly understands... except for people here... that we are in love with almost 3 years' age difference. I don't even know how he began to even like me. It was a true miracle and I may think that if we have a storage of luck when we start out life, I might have used it all up when he told me he loved me.
it's been almost 3 months since we had our LDR begin.
We're hurting, we haven't been able to see each other except via skype since, and it's our one year soon.
just hoping those three years until I get to college and can freely see him will be soon.
Thanks for reading the post! Just sharing our story.
P. S. doesn't it just SUCK to see couples in the hallways? It always makes me think of how I can't be with my boyfriend.
It's been a while. I doubt any one of you remember me, but I just wanted to post here for some reason.
We're still madly in love, we are still 15 and 18, and my mother is still strongly against us.
Nothing has really changed, except I've experienced different kinds of pain from being separated from him. I had tried to embrace myself but it was still horrible to experience it.
Not being able to see into his eyes, not being able to feel his hands that are cold but warm after holding mine, not being able to just be next to him...
it all hurts. As cliche as I sound, it hurts so much. I've spent too many nights crying, I've spent too many days wishing I could feel his hugs for just one second...
It's gotten a bit better since the beginning of our LDR since I guess I'm more used to it, but it still hurts.
it feels so strange that he can't be next to me anymore.
And I feel no one truly understands... except for people here... that we are in love with almost 3 years' age difference. I don't even know how he began to even like me. It was a true miracle and I may think that if we have a storage of luck when we start out life, I might have used it all up when he told me he loved me.
it's been almost 3 months since we had our LDR begin.
We're hurting, we haven't been able to see each other except via skype since, and it's our one year soon.
just hoping those three years until I get to college and can freely see him will be soon.
Thanks for reading the post! Just sharing our story.
P. S. doesn't it just SUCK to see couples in the hallways? It always makes me think of how I can't be with my boyfriend.
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