Me and James broke up last night. Our relationship wasn't moving forward like we hoped it would. We were constantly arguing, about silly things that when I think back now were irrelevant. I know that it was the best thing to do, because we were just hurting each other. It still doesn't make me feel better, it doesn't fix the emptiness that I am feeling. James was my boyfriend and my best friend, and I will miss every single thing about him, even the bad things. I accepted him for who he is, his flaws and everything, and I still loved him for it. But he couldn't accept my flaws, it made him love me less. The worse part is just feeling lonely. We have spoken everyday since March this year, and now we will probably never speak again. In a perfect situation, we would meet years from now, both knowing what sort of people we are, and maybe it would work out, but who knows? Right now, I have to focus on myself, so I can figure out what sort of person I am, and who sort of person I want to be. The distance, wasn't really the issue in the relationship, it was just the two people in it. I would never say never to another long distance relationship, but I know I would do things differently. I've already been tempted to text James, not hoping we will get back together, because it wouldn't happen, just to talk to him, because it's all I've ever known for months.
Lauren x
Lauren x
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