I need a little bit of advice from anyone willing to give it.
I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years now. We went to the same college together, and lived in the same town for a year after I graduated. The guy I'm with is a very kind, awesome guy, who is rational and we are able to reason logically with one another. We have everything in common, and he comes from a great family, who I love dearly, and our friends are all the same people. I can be over-bearing, strange, and irrational, and he seems to handle it really well. He can be closed-off, and a little distant which makes it hard to communicate sometimes. We are by no means perfect, but I'm really happy with him. I love him so much.
Our problem is that our careers drove us to literally opposite ends of the country. Because I want to be an animator, I have to live in a big city like NYC. (Or at least I feel like I do) And he went to a coding school in Portland, which will hook him up with a job after he's done in the next couple of months.
I have a job in NYC, but I honestly don't like living here and he 100% does not want to live in NYC. It is expensive, quite lonely, and I really just want to own a lawn and a pet and drive my car to work. Portland seems like it would be a great mix between city and country for me. The only problem is the career opportunities are limited, or not as abundant as NYC, and all our friends and family live on the east coast.
I really want to be excited about moving out there to be with him but there's something holding me back. I'm so nervous about making the wrong move. And I hear all the time that I'm young and there will be plenty of relationships in my future. But I don't want to date anyone else. The idea of not being with him and experiencing life with him makes me so so sad.
I guess what bothers me is that I'm willing to move out there for him, but he's not willing to move back to the east coast for me. But honestly, if I don't like NYC, and he likes Portland, why am I so bothered by it? We both really dug ourselves into a hole here. We want to support each other in our careers so much that we really didn't think through what might happen.
Being an adult sucks. I need help
I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years now. We went to the same college together, and lived in the same town for a year after I graduated. The guy I'm with is a very kind, awesome guy, who is rational and we are able to reason logically with one another. We have everything in common, and he comes from a great family, who I love dearly, and our friends are all the same people. I can be over-bearing, strange, and irrational, and he seems to handle it really well. He can be closed-off, and a little distant which makes it hard to communicate sometimes. We are by no means perfect, but I'm really happy with him. I love him so much.
Our problem is that our careers drove us to literally opposite ends of the country. Because I want to be an animator, I have to live in a big city like NYC. (Or at least I feel like I do) And he went to a coding school in Portland, which will hook him up with a job after he's done in the next couple of months.
I have a job in NYC, but I honestly don't like living here and he 100% does not want to live in NYC. It is expensive, quite lonely, and I really just want to own a lawn and a pet and drive my car to work. Portland seems like it would be a great mix between city and country for me. The only problem is the career opportunities are limited, or not as abundant as NYC, and all our friends and family live on the east coast.
I really want to be excited about moving out there to be with him but there's something holding me back. I'm so nervous about making the wrong move. And I hear all the time that I'm young and there will be plenty of relationships in my future. But I don't want to date anyone else. The idea of not being with him and experiencing life with him makes me so so sad.
I guess what bothers me is that I'm willing to move out there for him, but he's not willing to move back to the east coast for me. But honestly, if I don't like NYC, and he likes Portland, why am I so bothered by it? We both really dug ourselves into a hole here. We want to support each other in our careers so much that we really didn't think through what might happen.
Being an adult sucks. I need help
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