The Heartless Still Beats
The Heartless Still Beats
You are the sunshine on my face
You are the wind's warm embrace
You are the raindrops caressing my skin
You are the notes of the violin
My heart you make soar
Beating faintly - it grows to a roar
I see the YOU behind those eyes
The love I feel continues to rise
From across the ocean I feel your soul
You are my inspiration when life takes a toll
Our very essences are so intertwined
I am yours and you are mine
There is no one that can contest
From within each other, we bring out the best
Without you, there would be no air to breathe
For this love, there is no sheath
You are the sunshine on my face
You are the wind's warm embrace
You are the raindrops caressing my skin
You are the notes of the violin
All great things remind me of your grace
One day we will be able to embrace
Spiritually we are so connected
Both of us so affected
Words to describe you find me lacking
But for you I will always be backing
For no longer in my chest does my heart beat
Instead you have it, touch your chest-feel the heat
You are the sunshine on my face
You are the wind's warm embrace
You are the raindrops caressing my skin
You are the notes of the violin
---------- Post added at 12:44 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:43 AM ----------
Loves' Tour
My darling tenshi
You have no idea what you mean to me
Passion and love is yours to take
There is no other that can ever equate
Friendships-true ones we may be lacking
But we have each other in our court stacking
The odds in our favor without any waiver
We always will be each other's life saver.
Our friendship long, tried and true
Neither of us wants to see the other blue.
You have my heart and soul
There is no other I would ever take on a stroll
I belong to you- you belong to me.
For everyone else, they will just have to see
Your life is nothing but hard
One day pleasures will fall in your yard
You just have to pick them up you see
For me, there's you, and for you, there's me
And yet, sands old as time, continue to unwind.
We continue with our plans to redesign
We are what we are..
No more or less no matter how bizarre
I don't question my love or yours..
Fuck the world if they can not accept our loves' tours
---------- Post added at 12:46 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:44 AM ----------
Night Time
I need to pull myself together and be more the norm
Yet my heart refuses to stop loving- it still mourns
The scent of your cologne still on my bed
And I can't seem to get you out of my head
I opened up so deep to you
I wish this pain would be through
I know what love feels like
But it can cut like a knife
For so many ways you change my life
My belief in God is no longer in strife
Music ranges you have broadened
The arts you shared the blow did not softened
The symbol on my back of faith in God and us
Yet only God remains - he is just
HIS love is unending
My love for you both is not rescinding
You may be able to walk away
But my feelings you cannot take from me today
Even now I miss the friend I had
The one that listened to the good and the bad
Your grief I did not know how to bring you through
You were looking for a way for our relationship to undo
Hurt I felt at the silence you see
You are still so much a part of me
And the love for you I have is still strong
Even though I believe your silence is wrong
The help I sought may do me well
The new medications - only time will tell
To love so completely and openly is to take a risk
It can send you crashing like a hard disk
But now I know what it is like to feel
What love is for real
For now I will let you be
And try to take of care of me
Pain and all - I regret nothing!
Even though my legs are buckling
I have survived much in my lifetime
I will make it through this night time
I will come out stronger you see
In my heart, there is only you for me
If you love, you may have to let it go
If it returns, well then you know
if It was truly meant to be-
The future will be what you make it you see
---------- Post added at 12:48 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:46 AM ----------
Mirage
In the darkness my mind is left, the light is gone from my life
The memory of the radiance of your face cuts like a knife
Yet it is pointless to dwell in disgrace
On what once was because it will on make a mental case
The would haves, should haves, and could haves will haunt the mind
Yet the future was erased without a care, leaving the heart blind
Eyes are mirrors to the soul, yet mine appear to be lost
Such acts that have such costs
Do I blame you for where I am?
No - this was a matter of time that started long before we began
You were my heart and with your actions just a catalyst
In some ways maybe I am just a masochist,
I set myself up for failure, time again because no one can deliver
The expectations I set.. a partner, a soul mate, should just be quicksilver
The pain I'm used to, being alone.. as much for 20 years it was as such
Yes, I'm human.. I miss a man's hand and touch
But I am no one to judge -
To each his own I will not begrudge
I understand I am unique and my complications will break the meek
To attempt a relationship with me is not for the weak
My temper is hell to behold with anger and easy to flare
There's only been one that stopped it dead in its tracks - because I cared
The like of which I've never seen nor expect to see again
The longing I feel will only be yen
The men in between to fill a gap fall short you see?!
I want so much more because you showed me that could be..
They all want to stake a claim on me
The truth is you still have my heart see?!
And I am not happy with this half life existence although you maybe
And I do not know how to change it either and this is my dilemma see?
The end of the night leaves me always thinking of you.. and wondering
And why do they want claims on a heart is that not mine to give in no matter what thundering
You own it.. it is yours and I cannot deny it yet you do not claim it
Yet all I can do is acquit
Men.. I can burn through.. few handle me well less even as now
A fuck I am not but passionate?.. yes but my heart is to you vowed.
Night burns to day and.. I paint and why?.. I could fuck if I wanted..
Idiot men lay in my bed undaunted
It is not me -you see?!
You forever changed that part of my psyche
Sex is no longer sex
And love.. do not speak of love to me - as it is a convex
What I want is so much deeper
The dreams I had make me feel weaker
Marriage again? really?!
Why should I expect anything differently..
Yet they haunt me even today
And dawn's new light doesn't make them fade
What I know is that I will survive.. I always do
Time again and true
My heart isn't mine anymore
But like the raven nevermore..
I will take what I feel to the grave
Because no one can measure up to my nave
---------- Post added at 12:50 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:48 AM ----------
Mend
I am you see what you left of me
And all I do is cry
The feelings didn't change inside
The pain makes me want to wither and die
There is a giant hole in my heart
In silence you did depart
Yet the words you wrote
I still have those notes
Words are beautiful but cheap see
How else could you walk away so easily?!
You go to vanish without a trace
Yet etchings you left on my heart will not be erased
I have to find my strength again
And I don't think my heart will ever mend
Still I hope beyond reason
Even though to my love you committed high treason
That you will seek me out
Because I know you loved me without a doubt
The things we said and the mail exchanged
I realize you are in great pain
But you lash out without regret
I cannot believe you can forget
About me so easily
And all I can do is let you be
I'm looking for help to ease the despair
Because for you, I still care
A wretched wreck is what you have made me
But I still have God and Faith you see
HE will not ever leave me alone
And in my mind, I roam
The world keeps spinning out of control
A huge empty void exists in my soul
For you I still pray
That you will survive your grief one day
But you have left me broken
I can't bear to look at any of the tokens
I wonder if you still have mine
How could you be so unkind?!
I have to find my strength again
And I don't think my heart will ever mend.
The Heartless Still Beats
You are the sunshine on my face
You are the wind's warm embrace
You are the raindrops caressing my skin
You are the notes of the violin
My heart you make soar
Beating faintly - it grows to a roar
I see the YOU behind those eyes
The love I feel continues to rise
From across the ocean I feel your soul
You are my inspiration when life takes a toll
Our very essences are so intertwined
I am yours and you are mine
There is no one that can contest
From within each other, we bring out the best
Without you, there would be no air to breathe
For this love, there is no sheath
You are the sunshine on my face
You are the wind's warm embrace
You are the raindrops caressing my skin
You are the notes of the violin
All great things remind me of your grace
One day we will be able to embrace
Spiritually we are so connected
Both of us so affected
Words to describe you find me lacking
But for you I will always be backing
For no longer in my chest does my heart beat
Instead you have it, touch your chest-feel the heat
You are the sunshine on my face
You are the wind's warm embrace
You are the raindrops caressing my skin
You are the notes of the violin
---------- Post added at 12:44 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:43 AM ----------
Loves' Tour
My darling tenshi
You have no idea what you mean to me
Passion and love is yours to take
There is no other that can ever equate
Friendships-true ones we may be lacking
But we have each other in our court stacking
The odds in our favor without any waiver
We always will be each other's life saver.
Our friendship long, tried and true
Neither of us wants to see the other blue.
You have my heart and soul
There is no other I would ever take on a stroll
I belong to you- you belong to me.
For everyone else, they will just have to see
Your life is nothing but hard
One day pleasures will fall in your yard
You just have to pick them up you see
For me, there's you, and for you, there's me
And yet, sands old as time, continue to unwind.
We continue with our plans to redesign
We are what we are..
No more or less no matter how bizarre
I don't question my love or yours..
Fuck the world if they can not accept our loves' tours
---------- Post added at 12:46 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:44 AM ----------
Night Time
I need to pull myself together and be more the norm
Yet my heart refuses to stop loving- it still mourns
The scent of your cologne still on my bed
And I can't seem to get you out of my head
I opened up so deep to you
I wish this pain would be through
I know what love feels like
But it can cut like a knife
For so many ways you change my life
My belief in God is no longer in strife
Music ranges you have broadened
The arts you shared the blow did not softened
The symbol on my back of faith in God and us
Yet only God remains - he is just
HIS love is unending
My love for you both is not rescinding
You may be able to walk away
But my feelings you cannot take from me today
Even now I miss the friend I had
The one that listened to the good and the bad
Your grief I did not know how to bring you through
You were looking for a way for our relationship to undo
Hurt I felt at the silence you see
You are still so much a part of me
And the love for you I have is still strong
Even though I believe your silence is wrong
The help I sought may do me well
The new medications - only time will tell
To love so completely and openly is to take a risk
It can send you crashing like a hard disk
But now I know what it is like to feel
What love is for real
For now I will let you be
And try to take of care of me
Pain and all - I regret nothing!
Even though my legs are buckling
I have survived much in my lifetime
I will make it through this night time
I will come out stronger you see
In my heart, there is only you for me
If you love, you may have to let it go
If it returns, well then you know
if It was truly meant to be-
The future will be what you make it you see
---------- Post added at 12:48 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:46 AM ----------
Mirage
In the darkness my mind is left, the light is gone from my life
The memory of the radiance of your face cuts like a knife
Yet it is pointless to dwell in disgrace
On what once was because it will on make a mental case
The would haves, should haves, and could haves will haunt the mind
Yet the future was erased without a care, leaving the heart blind
Eyes are mirrors to the soul, yet mine appear to be lost
Such acts that have such costs
Do I blame you for where I am?
No - this was a matter of time that started long before we began
You were my heart and with your actions just a catalyst
In some ways maybe I am just a masochist,
I set myself up for failure, time again because no one can deliver
The expectations I set.. a partner, a soul mate, should just be quicksilver
The pain I'm used to, being alone.. as much for 20 years it was as such
Yes, I'm human.. I miss a man's hand and touch
But I am no one to judge -
To each his own I will not begrudge
I understand I am unique and my complications will break the meek
To attempt a relationship with me is not for the weak
My temper is hell to behold with anger and easy to flare
There's only been one that stopped it dead in its tracks - because I cared
The like of which I've never seen nor expect to see again
The longing I feel will only be yen
The men in between to fill a gap fall short you see?!
I want so much more because you showed me that could be..
They all want to stake a claim on me
The truth is you still have my heart see?!
And I am not happy with this half life existence although you maybe
And I do not know how to change it either and this is my dilemma see?
The end of the night leaves me always thinking of you.. and wondering
And why do they want claims on a heart is that not mine to give in no matter what thundering
You own it.. it is yours and I cannot deny it yet you do not claim it
Yet all I can do is acquit
Men.. I can burn through.. few handle me well less even as now
A fuck I am not but passionate?.. yes but my heart is to you vowed.
Night burns to day and.. I paint and why?.. I could fuck if I wanted..
Idiot men lay in my bed undaunted
It is not me -you see?!
You forever changed that part of my psyche
Sex is no longer sex
And love.. do not speak of love to me - as it is a convex
What I want is so much deeper
The dreams I had make me feel weaker
Marriage again? really?!
Why should I expect anything differently..
Yet they haunt me even today
And dawn's new light doesn't make them fade
What I know is that I will survive.. I always do
Time again and true
My heart isn't mine anymore
But like the raven nevermore..
I will take what I feel to the grave
Because no one can measure up to my nave
---------- Post added at 12:50 AM ---------- Previous post was at 12:48 AM ----------
Mend
I am you see what you left of me
And all I do is cry
The feelings didn't change inside
The pain makes me want to wither and die
There is a giant hole in my heart
In silence you did depart
Yet the words you wrote
I still have those notes
Words are beautiful but cheap see
How else could you walk away so easily?!
You go to vanish without a trace
Yet etchings you left on my heart will not be erased
I have to find my strength again
And I don't think my heart will ever mend
Still I hope beyond reason
Even though to my love you committed high treason
That you will seek me out
Because I know you loved me without a doubt
The things we said and the mail exchanged
I realize you are in great pain
But you lash out without regret
I cannot believe you can forget
About me so easily
And all I can do is let you be
I'm looking for help to ease the despair
Because for you, I still care
A wretched wreck is what you have made me
But I still have God and Faith you see
HE will not ever leave me alone
And in my mind, I roam
The world keeps spinning out of control
A huge empty void exists in my soul
For you I still pray
That you will survive your grief one day
But you have left me broken
I can't bear to look at any of the tokens
I wonder if you still have mine
How could you be so unkind?!
I have to find my strength again
And I don't think my heart will ever mend.
*Runs to grab my phone to text Miguel this masterpiece. I remind myself of a kitty running to it´s master with a dead bug...*
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