So. We met. I drove him to the airport today.

[tulipgirl]

That was one of the hardest things ive ever done in my life. I was fine until i got to the car... and now it's worse (that was at 1230 ish). My chest hurts, I can't stop crying. I just miss him so bad. I don't know if I'm so emotional cuz I'm so sleep deprived (lol!) or because he's gone. But I'm really really sad. I miss him so bad. It's so painful. Holy crap is it painful. I thought i'd be fine. Definitely not fine. He's so perfect. He is SO perfect. At least for me. I'll write more later, or answer any questions anyone has.

[FloridaLovesChicago]

Saying goodbye is never easy. My bf and I see each other every 3 months and it sucks when we part every single time. It makes it easier if you have a date to look forward to! Try to figure out your next meeting...that way you can be excited about something! =)

[tulipgirl]

It was hard enough to figure out this one. He's always busy. I'm trying to convince him to come live with me so I don't have to be away from him, but hes concerned of the risk, because we may break up or something and then what. ugh. It's so hard. 8000000x harder spending 5 days with him and now him being gone, than it is only being able to skype him. I keep crying lol. I don't know how to make it better. He should be able to come in May, i may kidnap him tho. Tough shit ;P

[Miasmata]

Give yourself the time to be sad and get those tears out. Don't think you gotta play tough and emotionless! Take some time to heal and then focus on moving forward!

[faith_patience_believe]

Each time you say goodbye, its the most horrible pain. I know exactly what you're feeling. There really isn't much of a way to make it pass more quickly. Just know that it WILL pass. Within a few days, you'll notice you're feeling a bit better. But during those first couple of days, try to spend time with friends to get your mind off of it, and just remember that it will get better.

[tulipgirl]

Thank you, it's so true! Today is the first day I didn't cry, so far! I do feel better. I am still sad hes gone but my heart isn't breaking anymore and I can actually function. It really is the most horrible pain, it's like he died and I'm mourning him. He's coming again in May sometime, and i'm trying to convince him to stay for good, it is a huge huge risk and makes me nervous but I know he's the one and I'm willing to risk it for the sake of having a future with the most perfect man I have ever met in my life, (This includes his loud chewing, snoring, leaving the toilet seat up and having stinky breath) lolol. I appreciate your comment faith_patience_believe.

[faith_patience_believe]

Thank you, it's so true! Today is the first day I didn't cry, so far! I do feel better. I am still sad hes gone but my heart isn't breaking anymore and I can actually function. It really is the most horrible pain, it's like he died and I'm mourning him. He's coming again in May sometime, and i'm trying to convince him to stay for good, it is a huge huge risk and makes me nervous but I know he's the one and I'm willing to risk it for the sake of having a future with the most perfect man I have ever met in my life, (This includes his loud chewing, snoring, leaving the toilet seat up and having stinky breath) lolol. I appreciate your comment faith_patience_believe.

I'm glad you're feeling better! Good luck with everything!

[tulipgirl]

Thank you . I appreciate you!