I know, two blog entries in a row, not good
But there are two things that makes me worry about the future and I have to get it down somewhere. (and I know it's late). I put mature content in the title, but hopefully it's okay.
The first thing is that I have a lung problem, for some reason, probably, a vein is bursting and causes it to fill my right lung with blood. No doctors knows why and they don't know if it's a vein. It first occured in autumn 2013 ( a few weeks before I met my SO) and came again at summer 2014. Year 2015 is soon over but I still fear the day it will come back. That's a worry I walk with, to knowing that the blood in lung can come anytime, anywhere and not knowing what's causing this. Because of this I don't dare to do things I used to do, rollercoasters, air pressure things, lift heavy things which have made me thin. I hope for future that the docs knows what it is and can treat it. Those coughing blood feels like to drown in your own blood. And because I don't dare to do heavy things that requires me to make an effort with lungs, I'm terrified that if I give birth, when pushing my lung problem will occur. Maybe it's a silly thought but it scares me. What will happen to the baby then if so? What will happen to me in that situation?
And the other thing is something that I don't know if I have, but it feels like it. It's called "endometriosis" ( see this link https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endometriosis )
I have many of the symtoms, including having pain when having sex, tampoon problem, constipated and period pain when I don't have period or ovulation. Sometimes I can get a suddenly, stabbing pain in my abdomen, and I don't do any ppills or sex at current time. I've been reading about it and it's often hard to diagnose this, 5-10 years, and I may not have it. But if I have, there's an infertility of at least 40-50%. And if I'm infertile, I don't know... I'm just so scared that I can't have children, being pregnant in the future. And that's a thing I would want to experience, so I hope I don't have it. And I hope that I have the courage to bring it up to gyn someday. This is a topic that turns my stomach, aches, worries, scares and makes me cry when thinking about the possibilities of I might have this. I think I can go with those symtoms but not infertility.
Don't work up courage to talk to your doc, if you are worried and think this is an issue just go and talk to him now. Waiting could make things worse
Do what Snow said above..