So, me and the bf ding 6 months in two weeks. I'm so excited for it. Its the only monthiversary I celebrate. After we hit 6 months its all years from there. Things continue to go amazingly. He's the best boyfriend I could ask for. We talked about Christmas presents, and I have his gifts all set. However, I'm starting to get a little nervous about what he may be getting me.

My bffs wedding was little over a month ago. We discussed stopping the whole wedding talk after the wedding was over. We had been more or less succeeding. The other day on a ride home from long island, out of no where, he started asking me about my engagement ring preferences. Cut, and style and stuff like that. I was really kind of shocked. I didn't think this topic would come up for a very long time. I gave him a brief description of what i wanted (which was really easy bc he gave me earrings that are identical to the style of engagement ring i want). Then he kinda dismissed it again, so I shrugged it off.

Then when I went to his house two days later, I walked into the kitchen and was immediately told to leave. Why was I told to leave? BC he was discussing my Christmas present with his mother. That seemed weird to me, unless he was trying to get her opinion on it.

Lastly, I jokingly reminded him of our budget for Christmas shopping for each other. And he just grinned and said, "I maybe going a little over"

Now, maybe I'm reading these signs wrong. Maybe I'm way way off, I don't know. But all of these signs to me point to possible engagement ring for Christmas. I don't really know how I feel about this and i'm not gonna get myself amped up for this if I'm wrong. BC there is a good possibility that I am. For lots of reasons.

We have discussed this before, and we both have agreed that 1 year is the minimum time people should get engaged. He's also told me that he doesn't want to get engaged until he can afford a wedding. We both also agree that we want to be absolutely sure that the person we marry is it. BC we only want to do this once in a lifetime, divorce isn't an option for us.

I really don't even know how I would handle it if he did propose. I love him more then anything and I can totally see a future for us. I can see us being together for the long haul, having kids and just being stupid happy for the rest of our lives. But I feel like there are steps I should take before getting engaged. Like living together and such. Again, I'm probably reading too much into this and he's just getting me some fancy jewelry for Christmas lol. I just needed to vent my concerns.