Social Anxiety.

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August 24, 2014, 10:09 PM
Social Anxiety.

I read this post on my tumblr feed:

For those who don't understand social anxiety:
-It is not cute

-It is hell

-Want to order pizza? Too fucking bad

-Want to go to a party? Be prepared to want to leave after 5 seconds

-Need to ask a salesperson for a different size? Guess you�re not getting it

-Hungry but it�s crowded in the restaurant? No food for you

-Social anxiety SUCKS

-It keeps you from doing things you want to do

-It makes you feel like shit

-Stop romanticizing it

-Social anxiety is absolute HELL

And it made me think back to that moment where Stephen told me I should go buy myself whatever I wanted when we were in the mall's food court, while he goes and gets himself some Chinese food and upon seeing all the people, I froze, not knowing what to do. If he didn't notice and went with me to buy a sandwich and just went to buy himself something, I would have not gotten myself anything. I was absolutely overwhelmed and decided within seconds I would not be able to do this task. I told him, I was not hungry and I would just eat when we got home, which would have been hours from there and I had no breakfast, but I was just too scared to mess up my order and make the people laugh at me.

It makes me remember the countless days and hours I spent worrying about an encounter I would have, thinking I would mess it up to the point of giving myself an anxiety attack..

I know I probably don't have Social Anxiety, but it kind of reminds me of so many situations. Just noticed it and so I wanted to get it off my chest.
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  whatruckus commented
  
  August 25, 2014, 02:56 PM
  
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  I still have it. If I'm late for class or something sometimes, I don't go. I get such anxiety because I think people are going to turn around and stare at me. When I went to my SO's graduation thing a few months ago, I missed just about all of it, I showed up for maybe the last 10 mins, but I didn't go in the auditorium and I didn't ask anyone where it was because I was afraid.
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  Cristiana commented
  
  August 25, 2014, 05:24 PM
  
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  I hadnt social anxiety, I was depressed for quite two years, but I acted like in those points.
  I never wanted to book appointments via phone, answer at someone else's phone, talk to a shop assistant/waiter and so on. And my parents always scolded me for that. I came to a point where I didnt want to leave home because of people looking at me. At school it was terrible, many times I had to call my mother to pick me up because I was locked in the toilet in a crying spells.
  
  Now Im not like that anymore, even if I hate crowded places and sometimes I dont want to be the first to enter somwhere and have all eyes on me, but I guess these are just little things I can work out on.
  
  It does get better.
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  differentcountries commented
  
  October 4, 2015, 08:02 AM
  
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  I don't think people think social anxiety or lack of self esteem or depression in itself is cute, but having someone to depend on you can feel reassuring. And at least in mild cases it can feel like you are a good influence over the person, and perhaps that they are trusting you when they lack trust in others and so on.
  
  My ex used to say she had social anxiety, it was never diagnosed but she did have some of the traits. For instance I could never let her talk to a stranger on the phone and she could get anxiety attacs if she could not get out of a crowd, even people she knew. In hindsight, I wish we had sought help for it.
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