*siiiiiiiiigh*
I'm not really sure what I want to share right now, but I know that I need to talk about this.
I traveled back home from a visit very late Sunday night. The weather was bad and it was dark and my SO had just moved so it was my first time driving from a part of Brooklyn I've never been to before. Still, I decided that it was better to just get home instead of leaving in the late morning Monday. It was better than having to sleep on his couch in his living room because he decided to play Final Fantasy all day into the night. His surround sound, televisions, computers, game systems, etc are in his bedroom so that he can stay in bed and play around the clock. I asked him before I visited if I should just leave Sunday because the last visit he ended up getting on Final Fantasy Sunday afternoon and played all night. The difference is that I could try to sleep (he's loud when he plays, talking to his friends) in his bedroom; this time he would be playing in his bedroom. He told me to leave Monday morning so we could have more time together, which made sense to me too. Next thing I know, on Saturday -when I was already there- he tells me that he'll be playing Final Fantasy with his friends Sunday. I didn't think he would be on for long after he had convinced me to stay an extra night. Well, early Sunday I decided to ask how long he'd be playing for. He replied, "All night." I didn't get mad. I went into the living room when he got on and started doing my own thing. Then I started thinking, "Why am I staying an extra night to sleep on a couch and still have to struggle to fall asleep over the noise when I could just go home to my own bed? Also, there are things I could/should be doing at home!"
So, he came out of his room on a gaming break and I told him I was going home.
There were 1 or 2 other little things that contributed to it but basically there was a huge argument that was started because I was so angry and I told him that he's a liar. He really lost his temper. When he calmed down I heard him on the game telling his friends that I was pissed and this and that. He apologized and stuff. I still left, obviously.
The rest of the visit was fine but after that I just didn't know how to feel. I was going to email him to say how I feel about it all but I have no words. Things have already been so shaky because I feel like there's no foreseeable end to our distance so I'm unsure how to move after what happened. It might sound like no big deal to some but I feel like it was a big deal.
Anyway, thanks for reading if you've read the whole thing.
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#6TriniCherryPrincess commentedDecember 11, 2013, 08:21 PMEditing a commentThis is the second time it's happened. Our last visit was the first time it happened. Yes, I think it needs to be addressed. Maybe in a calmer way, which should be possible by the time he's ready to talk to me again.
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#7jana89 commentedDecember 12, 2013, 02:18 AMEditing a commentHey Trini, I totally understand you being upset. My bf did the same thing once - I visited him for ten days (after 4 months being apart) and he spent one whole evening and night playing and the most of the next day sleeping. No need to tell how pissed I was. We talked about it, I said it really hurts me when he prefers some stupid game over me. He got mad first, that Im doing too much of nothing, but then he apologized and now we always talk about him playing in advance, so I can make some own plans for the time. Talk to your SO, Im sure he will understand your concern. Good luck with it
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#8TriniCherryPrincess commentedDecember 12, 2013, 10:48 AMEditing a commentThanks Jana89. That's all I wanted, to know beforehand what was going on. He wasn't honest about his plans for the weekend. Hopefully we can talk it out and there will not be a next time
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