It's so hard to remain invested in a place where you know you will not be in 5 months. It's been three weeks since visiting my fiancé and I'm still out of sorts here. I have written just one blog, not done any videos (I'm a part time consumer news writer & business blogger) and I have no motivation to do anything that's not related to moving or wedding planning. Not blogging will interfere with an online presence that I'm trying to build for a full-time content writing/blogging business that I'm exploring.
It doesn't help that I've decided to cut back on social activities so that I can save more money.
In my mind, I'm already gone...this doesn't feel like my home anymore.
I haven't been sleeping much neither and the crying bouts have been frequent. I've been forcing myself to get back to my normal routine but it isn't working. I'm so angry with myself for being like this. This is new territory for me and I'm not sure what to do. I'm usually so self-motivated and driven!
I'm in tears as I type this because I really need my fiancé but due to 16hrs time difference, I don't want to keep him up. He knows I'm feeling a little sad right now but he doesn't know that I'm outright crying. If he knew how bad I feel right now, he'd be on Skype with me, but I can't wreck his day tomorrow because I can't hold it together.
This sucks! I know it will be ok but I'm just so angry with myself right now!
It doesn't help that I've decided to cut back on social activities so that I can save more money.
In my mind, I'm already gone...this doesn't feel like my home anymore.
I haven't been sleeping much neither and the crying bouts have been frequent. I've been forcing myself to get back to my normal routine but it isn't working. I'm so angry with myself for being like this. This is new territory for me and I'm not sure what to do. I'm usually so self-motivated and driven!
I'm in tears as I type this because I really need my fiancé but due to 16hrs time difference, I don't want to keep him up. He knows I'm feeling a little sad right now but he doesn't know that I'm outright crying. If he knew how bad I feel right now, he'd be on Skype with me, but I can't wreck his day tomorrow because I can't hold it together.
This sucks! I know it will be ok but I'm just so angry with myself right now!
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