Hello I am Christina and I am 32 years old. I was enganged to a man named Mike (the one I am in the LDR with now) for almost 3 years. In 2013 I made easily the biggest mistake of my life. I left Mike because he was just not being into the relationship and he had a Xanax issue. Instead of leaving for a month and seeing if he'd come back I met a new man very quickly and married him in less that 8 months. All this time I still loved Mike, even more as Joe (husband) became more and more abusive not physical but smashing everything in the house calling me evil names as in "You were a rescue a DOG I rescued you like a pathetic dog" Plus one of my passions is news and politics not only would Joe refuse to talk about news with me (but would accuse me of never trying to talk to him) hes a conservative I am a progressive.
Anyway I came to my senses and left Joe, and reunited with Mike, then less than a month later because of an issue neither of us had any control over he had to move to Flordia. When we first reunited he would text me all kinds of loving things, but his cell broke so we talk on his house phone now, and on FB messenger forget it. He's never been Mr.Romantic and maybe the "romance" I am looking gor doesn't exist except on TV.
Mike and I are soul mates though. We can see a TV commercial and think "Mike would love that" and I'll call him and he'll tell me about it before I say a word. We agree very much politically and we both love to talk news.
It hurts that he doesn't do the loving messages and one BAD thing is he loves to make me jealous. I miss him so much. I want to be in his arms.
I have SUCH an amazing amount of guilt for leaving him and getting with Joe. Had I come back he would not be in Flordia or I would be with him. The guilt eats me so, so much.
How do you guys make it. I cry everyday. I miss him so much, how do you not lose hope?
I am so glad I found you guys to help me through this. I WILL one day live with him again, some how some way.
Sigh. I miss his laugh his kiss his hugs his jokes his sex every thing about him, or almost everything.
Anyway I came to my senses and left Joe, and reunited with Mike, then less than a month later because of an issue neither of us had any control over he had to move to Flordia. When we first reunited he would text me all kinds of loving things, but his cell broke so we talk on his house phone now, and on FB messenger forget it. He's never been Mr.Romantic and maybe the "romance" I am looking gor doesn't exist except on TV.
Mike and I are soul mates though. We can see a TV commercial and think "Mike would love that" and I'll call him and he'll tell me about it before I say a word. We agree very much politically and we both love to talk news.
It hurts that he doesn't do the loving messages and one BAD thing is he loves to make me jealous. I miss him so much. I want to be in his arms.
I have SUCH an amazing amount of guilt for leaving him and getting with Joe. Had I come back he would not be in Flordia or I would be with him. The guilt eats me so, so much.
How do you guys make it. I cry everyday. I miss him so much, how do you not lose hope?
I am so glad I found you guys to help me through this. I WILL one day live with him again, some how some way.
Sigh. I miss his laugh his kiss his hugs his jokes his sex every thing about him, or almost everything.
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