After 7 months I'm finally gonna see my SO again... At least.. That was what I thought.
I haven't spoken to my SO for the last week. But because I'm training a lot, and working I'm really tired in the evening I didn't care. I send him text messages of how I was doing. Everything was ok! I also knew he was working for his aunt, so if he didn't pick up when I called I wasn't worried.
So yesterday I called him again, no answer, but I wanted to talk to someone, so I called his mom, no answer, ok, I just call his dad. At this point it was 4 pm in Utah. I got a hold of his dad and it sounded like I was waking him up. So I asked if he was ok. He told me that he was really stressed, I asked him why?!
He hesitated and then said: I checked D (my SO) into rehab this morning..
My jaw dropped...
I asked him: you are kidding me, I said it a couple of times.. You got to be fucking kidding me!?
His dad could barely talk.. And I was just in shock.. I asked a bunch of questions, but his dad wasn't really able to answer them. And because I was still processing it I told him I would call him back tomorrow.
So I texted his sister if she knew anything and if I could call her. So I talked to her, and she told me D looked like crap lately. I guess I knew in the back of my mind...
D got arrested earlier this year for possession of drugs. But after that he was changing his life! I'm no angel, I did stuff, and D loves me because I've been through stuff, I know it, and he was always so happy that he could tell me ANYTHING and I wouldn't judge him.
And now I find out that he lied the last couple of months...
And I had no idea. I was clueless.. Untill last week.. Last week when I talked to him he was like he was on drugs.. Annoying! But I didn't ask him I he was, I was scared for the answer.. In denial.
So.. What now!? I'm gonna go there next Saturday (Sunday is my birthday) for 3,5 weeks. I paid 1200 dollars to see him.. And he is not going to be there..
He is in detox right now and that takes about 10 days... After that, I have no idea.. His sister and mom told me they would make sure I have a good time when I'm there, but im just numb..
I just don't know how to feel, I guess most of all I'm pissed off!! I really think that when I see him I will punch him in his face!
Why!?
I haven't spoken to my SO for the last week. But because I'm training a lot, and working I'm really tired in the evening I didn't care. I send him text messages of how I was doing. Everything was ok! I also knew he was working for his aunt, so if he didn't pick up when I called I wasn't worried.
So yesterday I called him again, no answer, but I wanted to talk to someone, so I called his mom, no answer, ok, I just call his dad. At this point it was 4 pm in Utah. I got a hold of his dad and it sounded like I was waking him up. So I asked if he was ok. He told me that he was really stressed, I asked him why?!
He hesitated and then said: I checked D (my SO) into rehab this morning..
My jaw dropped...
I asked him: you are kidding me, I said it a couple of times.. You got to be fucking kidding me!?
His dad could barely talk.. And I was just in shock.. I asked a bunch of questions, but his dad wasn't really able to answer them. And because I was still processing it I told him I would call him back tomorrow.
So I texted his sister if she knew anything and if I could call her. So I talked to her, and she told me D looked like crap lately. I guess I knew in the back of my mind...
D got arrested earlier this year for possession of drugs. But after that he was changing his life! I'm no angel, I did stuff, and D loves me because I've been through stuff, I know it, and he was always so happy that he could tell me ANYTHING and I wouldn't judge him.
And now I find out that he lied the last couple of months...
And I had no idea. I was clueless.. Untill last week.. Last week when I talked to him he was like he was on drugs.. Annoying! But I didn't ask him I he was, I was scared for the answer.. In denial.
So.. What now!? I'm gonna go there next Saturday (Sunday is my birthday) for 3,5 weeks. I paid 1200 dollars to see him.. And he is not going to be there..
He is in detox right now and that takes about 10 days... After that, I have no idea.. His sister and mom told me they would make sure I have a good time when I'm there, but im just numb..
I just don't know how to feel, I guess most of all I'm pissed off!! I really think that when I see him I will punch him in his face!
Why!?
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