Well, it's about two weeks left before I leave for my Christmas vacation to Florida to spend it with my family. Usually I'm totally stoked, and I still am, but this year I'm feeling a lot of mixed emotions, as I'm sure a lot of you feel.
My SO is leaving for basic training around New Years. He's totally excited, and I am too, but I won't be coming back from my vacation in time to say goodbye. Of course the first thing you would think of is "well just leave a little early" but the thing is my dad was deployed to Afghanistan this past May, and he gets to come home for about a week to spend time with us. There's just no way I'm not seeing him, he won't be coming home until May of next year, and I don't live over there so there's no telling when I'm going to get to see him again. And of course my SO is totally understanding of that. It just sucks, and I'm emotionally fine, I'm not freaking out or anything, just trying to really enjoy being with my SO while I can. Basic training is two months, then he gets two days to spend with the family, and me. And then he's shipped off to Tech school, way on the other side of Texas, which is like half way across the country (omg Texas y u so biiiig).
But yea, I guess this is just me complaining about stuff. I have kind of a crazy schedule until finals end, which is the day before I leave for my vacation. I really don't have much of my weekends since they decided to schedule 3 of my finals in two days (Friday and Saturday). So really this weekend is the last free weekend I have to spend with my SO. I'm going to work hard so I can have free time during the week to see him, but it's going to be tough. I'm usually the type to emotionally hit rock bottom and pretty cease function when stuff like this happens. But I can't really do that this time, too much work to do. I kind of like it that way, it doesn't allow me to focus on the time. I'm so proud of him though, it helps me to see this all in a positive light.
Don't you hate how no matter what there's always something tearing you in half? If it's not feeling torn in half between my family and my SO, it's my SO and studying for my finals Finals come first though.
Anyone else relate? Sorry for the long winded post, I just needed to clear my head :/
My SO is leaving for basic training around New Years. He's totally excited, and I am too, but I won't be coming back from my vacation in time to say goodbye. Of course the first thing you would think of is "well just leave a little early" but the thing is my dad was deployed to Afghanistan this past May, and he gets to come home for about a week to spend time with us. There's just no way I'm not seeing him, he won't be coming home until May of next year, and I don't live over there so there's no telling when I'm going to get to see him again. And of course my SO is totally understanding of that. It just sucks, and I'm emotionally fine, I'm not freaking out or anything, just trying to really enjoy being with my SO while I can. Basic training is two months, then he gets two days to spend with the family, and me. And then he's shipped off to Tech school, way on the other side of Texas, which is like half way across the country (omg Texas y u so biiiig).
But yea, I guess this is just me complaining about stuff. I have kind of a crazy schedule until finals end, which is the day before I leave for my vacation. I really don't have much of my weekends since they decided to schedule 3 of my finals in two days (Friday and Saturday). So really this weekend is the last free weekend I have to spend with my SO. I'm going to work hard so I can have free time during the week to see him, but it's going to be tough. I'm usually the type to emotionally hit rock bottom and pretty cease function when stuff like this happens. But I can't really do that this time, too much work to do. I kind of like it that way, it doesn't allow me to focus on the time. I'm so proud of him though, it helps me to see this all in a positive light.
Don't you hate how no matter what there's always something tearing you in half? If it's not feeling torn in half between my family and my SO, it's my SO and studying for my finals Finals come first though.
Anyone else relate? Sorry for the long winded post, I just needed to clear my head :/
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