Hello everybody,
I've just recently stumbled across this site, when I googled "long distance relationship" and it already helped me a lot. I haven't posted anything yet, but tonight I feel like ranting a bit, hoping for someone to maybe understand me.
Well, my relationship's still very fresh... and we both have been looking forward to today a lot, because it marks our one month anniversary (cute, I know ;p) Yesterday she told me she was feeling ill and she really didn't sound good, she already had fever and stuff, but tried to act normal. Today I really freaked out, when there was no message of her all day... I mean, I already thought she must've gotten really ill or something, because if she doesn't write.. especially on that special day... well you can imagine I worried a lot. -.-
I mean, I trust her, so I know when she doesn't message me, she has a good reason. But still! It's still our one month thing and instead of this cute day we've planned... (like just skyping a bit.. well she actually planned a surprise for me and I've planned something for her as well ;p) ... I've just spend a day completely freaking out, sending messages, checking my mails like every five minutes and being worried. Luckily she wrote like an hour ago, so at least I know something. She told me that she was really sorry, but she was feeling really bad and her fever apparently has gone up a lot... Of course she can't do anything about that and I know we'll just have to postpone our cute day until she's feeling better, which I have no problem with. But right now I'm just somehow so drained and tired, I just imagined this day to be like ... different and I just hate freaking out when there's no message of her. And I really freaked out, I mean, this day was important for both of us, so naturally I really worried when I just didn't hear anything, the whole day. And somewhere deep down I'm asking myself, why she just didn't write a bit earlier, but then again I'm like really worried for her and I just want her to be better. And I know, she must feel really bad, if she doesn't write to me and that just worries me.
I'm really sorry for ranting like this, but I just needed to get this out. I don't really have someone to talk about this stuff, most of my friends don't know about this relationship yet and even if they do, it's just difficult to really get it, you know.
Anyway... it was good getting this out =]
Greets from Germany
I've just recently stumbled across this site, when I googled "long distance relationship" and it already helped me a lot. I haven't posted anything yet, but tonight I feel like ranting a bit, hoping for someone to maybe understand me.
Well, my relationship's still very fresh... and we both have been looking forward to today a lot, because it marks our one month anniversary (cute, I know ;p) Yesterday she told me she was feeling ill and she really didn't sound good, she already had fever and stuff, but tried to act normal. Today I really freaked out, when there was no message of her all day... I mean, I already thought she must've gotten really ill or something, because if she doesn't write.. especially on that special day... well you can imagine I worried a lot. -.-
I mean, I trust her, so I know when she doesn't message me, she has a good reason. But still! It's still our one month thing and instead of this cute day we've planned... (like just skyping a bit.. well she actually planned a surprise for me and I've planned something for her as well ;p) ... I've just spend a day completely freaking out, sending messages, checking my mails like every five minutes and being worried. Luckily she wrote like an hour ago, so at least I know something. She told me that she was really sorry, but she was feeling really bad and her fever apparently has gone up a lot... Of course she can't do anything about that and I know we'll just have to postpone our cute day until she's feeling better, which I have no problem with. But right now I'm just somehow so drained and tired, I just imagined this day to be like ... different and I just hate freaking out when there's no message of her. And I really freaked out, I mean, this day was important for both of us, so naturally I really worried when I just didn't hear anything, the whole day. And somewhere deep down I'm asking myself, why she just didn't write a bit earlier, but then again I'm like really worried for her and I just want her to be better. And I know, she must feel really bad, if she doesn't write to me and that just worries me.
I'm really sorry for ranting like this, but I just needed to get this out. I don't really have someone to talk about this stuff, most of my friends don't know about this relationship yet and even if they do, it's just difficult to really get it, you know.
Anyway... it was good getting this out =]
Greets from Germany
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