Are you one of those people who drop everything you’re doing for someone? Or you put yourself out to make time for someone and they don’t appreciate it?
Yup I am one of those people and I guess I will never learn, I ALWAYS make time for people, always put myself out for people who need me. I never ask for anything in return either. It makes me feel good to know I’m that good person to try my best for everyone. Sometimes my mum has remind me that people wouldn’t do half as much for me as I do for them, ‘You’ve got a big heart Louise don’t let people take that for granted’ And I guess she was always right.
I’m probably having one of those days (4days) where I really sit and think about how people act towards me or how I’m there for their convenience (that’s how it feels sometimes) and I may be wrong.
The reason I guess this all came to light is because my SO is kind of making me feel I’m not his main priority right now I kind of don’t know how to explain it really. However, he flew home for Labour Day weekend on Friday to spend a long weekend with his mum grandparents, friends and sisters. And I have hardly heard a thing from him. It started 2 nights before he actually flew out, I made myself available both evenings ready for a face time YET he was too busy playing the Xbox and whatever else he was doing. And then Friday I get a text from him saying he has Wi-Fi on the plane... wait... stop... He’s on the plane already? He didn’t even tell me when he was flying, that he was even at the airport or boarding the plane? Don’t get me wrong he hasn’t got to tell me he’s every movement but I would have liked to know when he was actually flying, Then it has all kind of gone downhill from there. I knew the commination wasn’t going to be as much as it has been because his spending time with his family and hand on my heart I understand that more than anyone (I am a big family person) However, his actually been worse than what I prepared myself for. Didn’t let me know how the second flight went, when he landed. Just texted me saying his getting drunk and shooting now. No text goodnight, didn’t ask me how my day was, how I’ve been feeling. NOTHING! And same goes for Saturday evening.. Heard hardly nothing from him, Although he did ask me if something was wrong because I wasn’t being ‘talkative’ which I found pretty amusing when he said that as I’ve been trying to make conversation with him but I’ve been getting nothing back or he will reply 4 hours later with ‘sorry been shooting’ .. So I’d ask how it was 3 hours later ‘sorry was swimming going to the cabin with my mum now’ Nice.
I just I just expected more from him because I was willing to give him more when I went on Vacation for a week with my girls back in June and I did give him A LOT more. For the whole week, I had my phone glued to me I ran up a £190 phone bill paying for internet so we can what Sapp the whole time, face time etc. The girls got so angry with me because I was ALWAYS on my phone. I would let him know what we were up too, where we were heading next, I shared the funny moments with him. I would be in a club and I would text him right until I got into bed at 5am in the morning. I would be on the beach with the girls and I would face time him. Told him when I landed when I was at the airport EVERYTHING. I guess I thought keeping him in the loop with everything made him feel like he wasn’t being left out and because I was on vacation in a different country that he was still on my mind.
However, the way he’s being is making me feel like I am not as important to him as he is to me. Does that seem mean for me to say that? I know I should talk to him about it but I don’t want to be the reason he doesn’t enjoy the rest of his weekend, It just makes me kind of angry because I know when he’s back to Kansas he will be texting face timing me all the time .. Because he has no one he will be around but because his round people now it seems like his not as bothered about me.
Not looking for advice I guess I just needed to type out whole I feel because I feel so rotten right now with this whole situation and I feel so alone and it hurts! I don’t even want to talk to my best friend about it because I feel like im going to be bothering her just like I feel like im bothering him texting him while his away enjoying himself
Yup I am one of those people and I guess I will never learn, I ALWAYS make time for people, always put myself out for people who need me. I never ask for anything in return either. It makes me feel good to know I’m that good person to try my best for everyone. Sometimes my mum has remind me that people wouldn’t do half as much for me as I do for them, ‘You’ve got a big heart Louise don’t let people take that for granted’ And I guess she was always right.
I’m probably having one of those days (4days) where I really sit and think about how people act towards me or how I’m there for their convenience (that’s how it feels sometimes) and I may be wrong.
The reason I guess this all came to light is because my SO is kind of making me feel I’m not his main priority right now I kind of don’t know how to explain it really. However, he flew home for Labour Day weekend on Friday to spend a long weekend with his mum grandparents, friends and sisters. And I have hardly heard a thing from him. It started 2 nights before he actually flew out, I made myself available both evenings ready for a face time YET he was too busy playing the Xbox and whatever else he was doing. And then Friday I get a text from him saying he has Wi-Fi on the plane... wait... stop... He’s on the plane already? He didn’t even tell me when he was flying, that he was even at the airport or boarding the plane? Don’t get me wrong he hasn’t got to tell me he’s every movement but I would have liked to know when he was actually flying, Then it has all kind of gone downhill from there. I knew the commination wasn’t going to be as much as it has been because his spending time with his family and hand on my heart I understand that more than anyone (I am a big family person) However, his actually been worse than what I prepared myself for. Didn’t let me know how the second flight went, when he landed. Just texted me saying his getting drunk and shooting now. No text goodnight, didn’t ask me how my day was, how I’ve been feeling. NOTHING! And same goes for Saturday evening.. Heard hardly nothing from him, Although he did ask me if something was wrong because I wasn’t being ‘talkative’ which I found pretty amusing when he said that as I’ve been trying to make conversation with him but I’ve been getting nothing back or he will reply 4 hours later with ‘sorry been shooting’ .. So I’d ask how it was 3 hours later ‘sorry was swimming going to the cabin with my mum now’ Nice.
I just I just expected more from him because I was willing to give him more when I went on Vacation for a week with my girls back in June and I did give him A LOT more. For the whole week, I had my phone glued to me I ran up a £190 phone bill paying for internet so we can what Sapp the whole time, face time etc. The girls got so angry with me because I was ALWAYS on my phone. I would let him know what we were up too, where we were heading next, I shared the funny moments with him. I would be in a club and I would text him right until I got into bed at 5am in the morning. I would be on the beach with the girls and I would face time him. Told him when I landed when I was at the airport EVERYTHING. I guess I thought keeping him in the loop with everything made him feel like he wasn’t being left out and because I was on vacation in a different country that he was still on my mind.
However, the way he’s being is making me feel like I am not as important to him as he is to me. Does that seem mean for me to say that? I know I should talk to him about it but I don’t want to be the reason he doesn’t enjoy the rest of his weekend, It just makes me kind of angry because I know when he’s back to Kansas he will be texting face timing me all the time .. Because he has no one he will be around but because his round people now it seems like his not as bothered about me.
Not looking for advice I guess I just needed to type out whole I feel because I feel so rotten right now with this whole situation and I feel so alone and it hurts! I don’t even want to talk to my best friend about it because I feel like im going to be bothering her just like I feel like im bothering him texting him while his away enjoying himself
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