I have no idea what is going on with me. Idk if its stress or just being overwhelmed...
On August 30th, my bf will be coming for a very short visit (8hrs) he will be here at 11:15pm, that same day I have an Oral Presentation in my Spanish 101 class. Im so nervous for that!
John and I have an arrangement where we see each other every 2 weeks for a 36 hr visit...the week of the 30th is my time to have a "normal" visit with him, but that same week he will be in Columbus (where I live) to go to a football game with his dad. Since John only has 1 day off a week normally that day is his day off, so I wont get that normal visit.
Instead, john will be coming the week after the 30th to make up for the short visit. I know thats sweet of him but i dont know what to do.
Its not just the ldr that is affecting me. Its my parents. They go through pain. They have a pill problem but they dont realize it. My mom is really bad. My dad still functions but my mom stays in the house 24/7 unless she goes to the dr. Whenever I mention something "innocent" like "Mom what are you doing?" or "You're falling asleep" I get yelled at. I feel like they turn stuff around to make me feel like Im out of line.
I feel like Im constantly worrying. My parents go to bed late normally. Sometimes my dad gets sleep deprived and literally falls asleep anywhere. So when I get off the phone with my bf I go downstairs to the bathroom and I always have to check to see if they are in bed. My bf tells me to not worry and just go to bed, but the what ifs are always there. What if my dad falls and kills himself? What if my dad burns the house down by dropping a cigarette? Im also worried he will wreck our car, which will sabotage my school days.
I dont know what to do. Lately Ive been feeling so confused. Im so sad that John and I are in this ldr. We have been at it for a year and its so sad.
On August 30th, my bf will be coming for a very short visit (8hrs) he will be here at 11:15pm, that same day I have an Oral Presentation in my Spanish 101 class. Im so nervous for that!
John and I have an arrangement where we see each other every 2 weeks for a 36 hr visit...the week of the 30th is my time to have a "normal" visit with him, but that same week he will be in Columbus (where I live) to go to a football game with his dad. Since John only has 1 day off a week normally that day is his day off, so I wont get that normal visit.
Instead, john will be coming the week after the 30th to make up for the short visit. I know thats sweet of him but i dont know what to do.
Its not just the ldr that is affecting me. Its my parents. They go through pain. They have a pill problem but they dont realize it. My mom is really bad. My dad still functions but my mom stays in the house 24/7 unless she goes to the dr. Whenever I mention something "innocent" like "Mom what are you doing?" or "You're falling asleep" I get yelled at. I feel like they turn stuff around to make me feel like Im out of line.
I feel like Im constantly worrying. My parents go to bed late normally. Sometimes my dad gets sleep deprived and literally falls asleep anywhere. So when I get off the phone with my bf I go downstairs to the bathroom and I always have to check to see if they are in bed. My bf tells me to not worry and just go to bed, but the what ifs are always there. What if my dad falls and kills himself? What if my dad burns the house down by dropping a cigarette? Im also worried he will wreck our car, which will sabotage my school days.
I dont know what to do. Lately Ive been feeling so confused. Im so sad that John and I are in this ldr. We have been at it for a year and its so sad.
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