Hey guys I need some advice, since the story is long, I'd try to resume it as much as possible.
At first we met over the Internet an year and half ago and I pretended to be someone as I still wasn't ready to tell him the truth, but he already found out and I told him everything about me. Since October last year we stopped getting along like before, he said he wanted to make me hate him because it's not worth it waiting for him. It got me really upset, we both were . There were low chances to meet so we didn't make it.
Ps I'm continuing since I said I pretended. Well I was expecting him to hate me and stop talking to me but he didn't, he continued to talk to me despite this. He said he does it for me. I thought he might still have feelings for me. But with time got even worse. I've portrayed myself in the wrong ways possible by being clingy,obsessive to talk to him, drama queen and I overreact at things even till now. Because he ignores me a lot, criticise me often, calls me a psycho etc... It kills me inside. I'd just message him, but later regret as he seems careless and emotionless since a long time, there are periods he would seem to care but then it gets back to the old sh*it.
Sometimes he would turn nice like he might be hiding some of his feelings but then switches fast and gets cold towards me and even jealous at times. It gets me upset, last week I told him I love him and he was like hahaha no you don't. Anyways this month isn't going well at all. One night he kept calling me on Skype wanting to talk, acted so weird so I said something then he got mad and hung up saying that he doesn't want to talk. One night later because I felt like bothering I told him goodnight then he said that he has a girlfriend, I assume to just leave him alone. As I was like show me that you have and he refused to do so as he sent me a message in a form of showing me that his girlfriend actually wrote it for me to prove but I didn't really believe it as I thought that he just wrote it down by himself. The problem is that often I get overlysensitive to him ignoring me and I even start to believe I'm a psycho when he calls me that. I know we both can enjoy each other's company and if we do meet would be so fun. But I'm starting to lose hopes and give up.
Since he was always the first one to lose hope in the past, so I'm not surprised.
Everytime he messages me first I'd act b*tchy and I know it's wrong.
So please guys tell me what to do to get out of this situation. I know he isn't a saint either so I will have to make this clear. This guy is as stubborn as me and we have pride. But I'd be the one to approach when something is wrong. And fix it but now it seems impossible to get along since he believes that we won't ever meet but I keep believing we would. Or I'm just not being realistic. Got to mention I have never stopped caring about him. I'm thinking to not message him the rest of this month.
At first we met over the Internet an year and half ago and I pretended to be someone as I still wasn't ready to tell him the truth, but he already found out and I told him everything about me. Since October last year we stopped getting along like before, he said he wanted to make me hate him because it's not worth it waiting for him. It got me really upset, we both were . There were low chances to meet so we didn't make it.
Ps I'm continuing since I said I pretended. Well I was expecting him to hate me and stop talking to me but he didn't, he continued to talk to me despite this. He said he does it for me. I thought he might still have feelings for me. But with time got even worse. I've portrayed myself in the wrong ways possible by being clingy,obsessive to talk to him, drama queen and I overreact at things even till now. Because he ignores me a lot, criticise me often, calls me a psycho etc... It kills me inside. I'd just message him, but later regret as he seems careless and emotionless since a long time, there are periods he would seem to care but then it gets back to the old sh*it.
Sometimes he would turn nice like he might be hiding some of his feelings but then switches fast and gets cold towards me and even jealous at times. It gets me upset, last week I told him I love him and he was like hahaha no you don't. Anyways this month isn't going well at all. One night he kept calling me on Skype wanting to talk, acted so weird so I said something then he got mad and hung up saying that he doesn't want to talk. One night later because I felt like bothering I told him goodnight then he said that he has a girlfriend, I assume to just leave him alone. As I was like show me that you have and he refused to do so as he sent me a message in a form of showing me that his girlfriend actually wrote it for me to prove but I didn't really believe it as I thought that he just wrote it down by himself. The problem is that often I get overlysensitive to him ignoring me and I even start to believe I'm a psycho when he calls me that. I know we both can enjoy each other's company and if we do meet would be so fun. But I'm starting to lose hopes and give up.
Since he was always the first one to lose hope in the past, so I'm not surprised.
Everytime he messages me first I'd act b*tchy and I know it's wrong.
So please guys tell me what to do to get out of this situation. I know he isn't a saint either so I will have to make this clear. This guy is as stubborn as me and we have pride. But I'd be the one to approach when something is wrong. And fix it but now it seems impossible to get along since he believes that we won't ever meet but I keep believing we would. Or I'm just not being realistic. Got to mention I have never stopped caring about him. I'm thinking to not message him the rest of this month.
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