He broke up with me yesterday. It was completely unexpected, and very sudden. I'm hurt, angry, and broken. I don't understand.
Long story short, he said he "hasn't been feeling it" for about two months now. He even felt weird when I just visited him up in Connecticut a few weekends ago. He said he doesn't feel as though we are a forever love anymore, and he just doesn't see a future with me anymore. He said he still cares about me, and loves me, but more as a friend, rather than a future wife. He said he didn't understand why he lost feelings, but when he received my Christmas card, and read my heartfelt words, he felt nothing. That's when he knew something was wrong. He says he doesn't understand what happened to his feelings, and said that maybe he's not cut out for long distance like he once thought he was. He said he's even been looking at engagement rings but it didn't excite him like it should.
We've been together nearly two years. Two years of long distance. Challenges with the military. Separation via boot camp, and A-school. We've been through so much together, so many amazing memories, actively planning a future together, and now it's all just gone. He's trying to say he's saving me from potential heartache later on down the road if he were to have made a bigger commitment and these feelings he's having would be persistent. I really don't understand because over these past two months he has still been talking future things, allowing me to go out and purchase his Christmas gifts, etc. Several of my friends are saying that he was probably just too scared to say anything just yet.
I have sacrificed so much for this relationship. I have put in so much effort, but it wasn't given on his end. He allowed himself to lose feelings for me, because he didn't try hard enough. I would've done and did anything to make us thrive, but it wasn't really reciprocated. I know now that that's not a relationship. I made excuses for him because "he's in the military and can't do whatever he wants," or "his finances aren't the greatest so it'll be on me." It was always on me. Financially, travel-wise, everything. Even emotionally, I felt as though I was carrying our relationship, and last night proved it. I obviously was the one who loved more in our relationship.
I just really don't know what to do right now. The thought of eventually starting over terrifies me, because I feel as though I won't find someone else. Nearly two years of my life down the drain-- Every hope, every dream we once shared together, all gone because he's "just not feeling it anymore."
Long story short, he said he "hasn't been feeling it" for about two months now. He even felt weird when I just visited him up in Connecticut a few weekends ago. He said he doesn't feel as though we are a forever love anymore, and he just doesn't see a future with me anymore. He said he still cares about me, and loves me, but more as a friend, rather than a future wife. He said he didn't understand why he lost feelings, but when he received my Christmas card, and read my heartfelt words, he felt nothing. That's when he knew something was wrong. He says he doesn't understand what happened to his feelings, and said that maybe he's not cut out for long distance like he once thought he was. He said he's even been looking at engagement rings but it didn't excite him like it should.
We've been together nearly two years. Two years of long distance. Challenges with the military. Separation via boot camp, and A-school. We've been through so much together, so many amazing memories, actively planning a future together, and now it's all just gone. He's trying to say he's saving me from potential heartache later on down the road if he were to have made a bigger commitment and these feelings he's having would be persistent. I really don't understand because over these past two months he has still been talking future things, allowing me to go out and purchase his Christmas gifts, etc. Several of my friends are saying that he was probably just too scared to say anything just yet.
I have sacrificed so much for this relationship. I have put in so much effort, but it wasn't given on his end. He allowed himself to lose feelings for me, because he didn't try hard enough. I would've done and did anything to make us thrive, but it wasn't really reciprocated. I know now that that's not a relationship. I made excuses for him because "he's in the military and can't do whatever he wants," or "his finances aren't the greatest so it'll be on me." It was always on me. Financially, travel-wise, everything. Even emotionally, I felt as though I was carrying our relationship, and last night proved it. I obviously was the one who loved more in our relationship.
I just really don't know what to do right now. The thought of eventually starting over terrifies me, because I feel as though I won't find someone else. Nearly two years of my life down the drain-- Every hope, every dream we once shared together, all gone because he's "just not feeling it anymore."
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